Re: Hospice: Knowledge and Wisdom Worth Dying For
I have been an RN since 1987, starrted out in L & D for 8.5 yrs., moved to Med/Surg for 2 yrs all on the night shift then had a day job I applied to for outpatient pretesting for surgery. I had also applied to Hospice at that time but the position was filled by a nurse already on staff. After 10 yrs in the pretest department at the hospital, I moved to Radiology Nursing/PICC Lines, been there just over a year now, and am seriously thinking about going for Hospice again. Since I have been in this hospital for 17+ yrs, I am hesitant to move still. Could someone please push me........................I keep telling my husband who is unemployed that I am not sure if the money would be the same, but I feel my peace of mind should come as a higher priority.....I have 5 references, 3 who work for Hospice and an RN I work with who recently lost her husband and had Hospice......she tells me I was his 2nd favorite nurse. In Radiology we do biopsies, and para/thoracentesis, drainage tubes, nephrostomy tubes, etc. some of the patients have been 85+ with mets and I am always asking myself why are they doing this, a 94 yr old last week who has Hospice came to us for her 5th Nephrostomy tube placement, she's lost at least 60 pds since we first saw her and has dementia, this is when I feel it's about the money and I get so frustrated......the time we put bilateral tubes in she was on her stomach and somewhat overweight......we had to end up strapping her to the CT table and the Interventional Rad was yelling at me, that it was my job to make her not move.......I was so upset......and felt so bad for the poor woman. If that had been my mother............it never would have happened.....and I hope it doesn't happen to me someday. I sometimes feel like I should just apply and see what they have to offer.........At least in Hospice I would know what I am dealing with, and not be stressed on a day to day basis with ppl yelling, if you know what I am talking about. We also do conscious sedation, alot of responsibility. Need encouragement from others out there to move on........my self esteem has been crushed many times this past yr..............I actually had to do a presentation during my team nursing in school (back in the days) and it was done on "Death and Dying" I think my teacher was surprised as were some of the floor nurses. I did one time during my Med/Surg., take care of a 44 yr old woman with cirrhosis who was dying, I took care of her every night that I worked and I knew for some reason she was going to die soon, I called the evening floor nurse and requested that the other bed in the room be left empty if possible so her husband could spend the night, to my surprise when I came in they had not filled the bed and her husband was there.........she did die that night, and he was allowed to stay, and I had time to help him through it too........it's been one of my best experiences in my nursing career...........please feel free to help me out here.........
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