Your sympathy, empathy, and general spirit takes such a beating in Nursing it HAS TO BE almost or is "Faked" sometimes. After my Naive years on the emotional rollercoaster of being a few months into ER Nursing, I almost totally wrecked my 6 year in (at the time) marriage. I noticed most of my friends quit coming around, or really going out of their way to connect. I got married younger than most, so I chalked it up as they were starting families, so on/so forth.
Now, my wife, being stuck with me- she confronted me. It hit me like a ton of bricks that I was totally give out emotionally drained. I didn't want to "FEEL" anything positive/negative after I got off work, totally numb. I gave her ZIP in the affection, reassurance, and encouragement departments. I also see how easily someone could succumb to a drug that "covers" negative emotions. I sought help real fast, I knew she was right, I had lost interest in everything I used to be passionate about. I became distant. I hated to leave the house. The help I got saved me as a person, and I then seen how demanding the emotional strain had been- and how isolated I had made myself.
Why post this on this thread?
I hope if you remember feeling better mentally in an earlier period of life (I don't care how long), seek help. If your not interested in things you once were- somethings happened. It will effect EVERY aspect of your life untreated. I have seen so many nurses turn to drugs, risky lifestyles, and even suicide to "escape." Reach Out if You Need Help.
I know I am not the only one to have this gut reaction to "I will never forget my patients," seeing above post. And like that poster, I am just saying, guard your heart. If you don't take care of yourself first, it just gets harder to take care of anything else the way you'd like too. Don't set self aspirations too high like that is all, your going to have a hard enough demand on your spiritual health anyway.
Just don't take yourself tooooo seriously, and BE GOOD TO YOURSELF- You deserve it.