Dear Nurse Beth,
I started my first nursing position three months ago. I am working in a small 6 bed ED.At first, I was very excited about my new position. It seemed that everyone was very kind, but after 3 months I believe that they do not like me.
I feel everyone is waiting for me to fail, quit or mess up so they can get rid of me. I do not know why nurses are so horrible to their new employees. I don't know if I should continue to work through this and prove to the other employees and manager that I am capable of doing this job.
I really just want to find something else to do all together, I don't even want to be a nurse if this is the environment I will be in for years and years.
Dear They Want to Get Rid of me,
I'm sorry you're so unhappy in your job. You are out of the Honeymoon Phase and in Reality Shock.
Without any examples of what is happening, it's hard to say what's going on. Is it possible they are watching to see if you can perform independently and safely under stress? Testing you?
Is this a tight-knit group? In my experience, small units, ED and other specialty units can tend to attract strong "personalities" and be harder to break into.
Knowing this, some hiring managers look for applicants with a bit of thick skin and spirit who are resilient.
I'm not saying it's right. I'm saying I know how it can be, and what I've learned.
I would give it six months to a year, for your own good. Your competence and confidence will increase and you do not want a short tenure on your resume.
I know you're determined- you made it through nursing school! You can do this.
Be open to the possibility that your perception may change again. At first, everyone was kind, after three months they were not, and in another three months, they may be tolerable.
Three months in nursing is not in any way enough time to decide whether or not to leave the profession. This is not the environment
you will be in for years and years, trust me.
Author, "Your Last Nursing Class: How to Land Your First Nursing Job"...and your next!