hi fellow nurses! I am 32, I was dx with invasive DC in July (stage 1) BRCA 2pos, had double mast, reconstructive surgery (x2!) and on my 3rd AC chemo treatment. Had a miscarriage in May, right before my dx. Was working on BUSY and very stressful med surg floor handling 7-10 patients overnight. Made my first med error am after I got dx and decided for pt safety to take personal leave until my surgery- was not willing to hurt someone due to my distraction. I didnt harm anyone, brought my mistake to everyone's attention, and mostly felt terrible. They gave me a coaching form and put a notation that I was having personal health issues at the time.
I have been cleared to rtw after december 1st, as i will only be on taxol then, and will try to get my old job back in January--I have kept a good relationship with the sv and ed director (who actually came to my surgery!). The hard thing is I was only on the job 7 months (graduated in December 2010) and had just started to get my wings. I am terrified to go back, the med error and the cancer dx really shattered me and my confidence. I know I need to jump back in, was wondering if anyone has any tips on rtw after a crisis like this? I am seeing a counselor next week to try and work through coping skills to handle all of this. Any advice is much appreciated.