Nurses struggling with mental illness - page 64

I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major... Read More

  1. by   Fuzzy
    I have learned that if you ask for help for a mental illness, that the likely hood of losing privledges, rights, and other parts of your life increases dramatically. I know (now) from reading this forum that if I were to go into human nursing that I would be unemployable. I'm glad that I chose the animal side as it seems that the vets ar more open minded than their human counterparts. Granted I make a lot less money and don't have many health benefits but I have an enjoyable job and work for a wonderful practice in spite of the demons in me. Actually I'm not a danger to my patients as much as I'm a danger to myself. It seems to me that this is common in most people with a mental illness. We destroy ourselves.

    Fuzzy
  2. by   tiredstudentmom
    I have to say that as a pre-nursing student I am so very glad that I found this site. I have found a tremendous amount of information that was encouraging, useful, scary, and hilarious. I have major depressive disorder and generalized anxiety disorder along with hypertension (since early 20's). I am a very compliant patient who takes meds like clockwork, try to utilize my support systems, and to take a break every now and then. What other techniques would help someone such as myself survive not only nursing school, but working in the real world? I already work in the medical field as a Registered Medical Assistant and have worked as a general nurse aide before. I feel this will help some but need some input. I have read don't let others keep you down, learn as much as you can, keep your head up, and try to stay out of politics as much as is possible.
  3. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from amyRMA
    ...I have found a tremendous amount of information that was encouraging, useful, scary, and hilarious.
    I like the way that you put this. Yep that describes this place for sure!

    It sounds like you have already learned to apply the principles you will need to get thru school and nursing. Adequate sleep and nutrition, taking time off when needed, having a support system that will give you both support and honest feedback, also knowing when you are in over your head (that last is really difficult for me) hope to hear from you more as you progress!

    xo
  4. by   Charlatan
    Yes I am interested in knowing if it even make sense for me to become a nurse at the first place. I supposedly am bipolar which i do not believe I am. I have had depression ADD and anxiety for a while. I have seen a lot of discrimination and bad attitude towards my condition. If nurses are not allowed to practice with a psychological condition, it has to be clear from the first day to the students. Such a waste of my money and time for three years. I could have done better things with my life as a guy.
  5. by   kelsey.kristine
    I have....issues....but I'm still going for my RN!!!

    I've spent too long being held back by my ADD, PTSD, anxiety and depression (one doc suggested bipolar, but apparently my mood swings are common with other issues, such as the PTSD, so I'm not diagnosed), and a good 'ole fun ED.

    Honestly...having nursing to work towards has given me so much motivation...I've worked harder to get myself to a healthy point!!

    I'm only torn on bringing up any issues while I'm in school. I don't see the need right now...but even with meds my ADD can negatively affect my life

    anyway. I don't see why you should give up just yet!
  6. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from kelsey.kristine
    I have....issues....but I'm still going for my RN!!!

    I've spent too long being held back by my ADD, PTSD, anxiety and depression (one doc suggested bipolar, but apparently my mood swings are common with other issues, such as the PTSD, so I'm not diagnosed), and a good 'ole fun ED.

    Honestly...having nursing to work towards has given me so much motivation...I've worked harder to get myself to a healthy point!!

    I'm only torn on bringing up any issues while I'm in school. I don't see the need right now...but even with meds my ADD can negatively affect my life

    anyway. I don't see why you should give up just yet!
    I agree!

    I would try asking disability rights people to check into it for you anonymously - maybe your local psych hospital would know who you could call (the social worker)
  7. by   McGwillis
    I have issues, and I am an RN!!!

    I have learned my lesson about sharing my disability with people at work. I will never do it again. It seems like people found more and more things wrong with me when I told them I had ADHD. I also had a coworker tell me that she thinks I have Asperger's Syndrome (I know enough about that one to know that I definitely don't have it), and that was a bit off-putting. In my next job, I will keep things to myself (an ADHD person often has HUGE difficulty with that), and have a resource to go to outside of work or EAP in order to discuss those things.
  8. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from ChoppinBroccoli
    I have issues, and I am an RN!!!

    I have learned my lesson about sharing my disability with people at work. I will never do it again. It seems like people found more and more things wrong with me when I told them I had ADHD. I also had a coworker tell me that she thinks I have Asperger's Syndrome (I know enough about that one to know that I definitely don't have it), and that was a bit off-putting. In my next job, I will keep things to myself (an ADHD person often has HUGE difficulty with that), and have a resource to go to outside of work or EAP in order to discuss those things.

    Yikes! not so nice
  9. by   NurseCherish
    Hi all! I'm new to this board. I just would like to say I am very thankful for this thread. I've been diagnosed with depression since I was in high school. I've been a nurse for 3 1/2 years and I love it. I can't imagine doing anything else.

    Anyway, I've found myself going downhill for the past couple of months. I've been very anxious, not wanting to work a whole lot, taking call a lot. I've been criticized a lot by my coworkers for doing so. Little do they know, my depression is flaring up again. They all see me as being lazy and just not wanting to work. I just always feel like it is nothing but drama around there. Everyone is always in everyone else's business. I feel like I'm pretty much the whipping boy. Everyone is always telling me, you need to work. They say I've changed since I got married (in November). Not to mention they all thought I was crazy for getting married so quick anyway. Everyone always puts their two cents in...on everything. I feel like it's such a terrible environment to be in. (there is a whole lot more to the story, but that would take too long...)


    So, back to the point, I had a breakdown last night. I got very anxious and started bawling and couldn't stop for hours. I scared my husband to death...I even scared myself. I ended up having to call in, which I'm sure I'll get in trouble for because that is an issue as well. Anyway, I just told them I had a family emergency...I would really rather not have them know. I'm just not sure of where to go from here. I've never had an episode quite this bad before. I have an appt today with my Dr. I'm sure he'll change my meds, but I think I need more then that. I've never been to a therapist before and I'm thinking that might be very helpful. My question is, what do I do about work? Do I approach my boss and tell her what is going on? Did I mention she was the type to let everyone know whats going on, no matter how personal? I just really don't know where to go from here. Any thoughts?
  10. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from NurseCherish
    Hi all! I'm new to this board. I just would like to say I am very thankful for this thread. I've been diagnosed with depression since I was in high school. I've been a nurse for 3 1/2 years and I love it. I can't imagine doing anything else.

    Anyway, I've found myself going downhill for the past couple of months. I've been very anxious, not wanting to work a whole lot, taking call a lot. I've been criticized a lot by my coworkers for doing so. Little do they know, my depression is flaring up again. They all see me as being lazy and just not wanting to work. I just always feel like it is nothing but drama around there. Everyone is always in everyone else's business. I feel like I'm pretty much the whipping boy. Everyone is always telling me, you need to work. They say I've changed since I got married (in November). Not to mention they all thought I was crazy for getting married so quick anyway. Everyone always puts their two cents in...on everything. I feel like it's such a terrible environment to be in. (there is a whole lot more to the story, but that would take too long...)


    So, back to the point, I had a breakdown last night. I got very anxious and started bawling and couldn't stop for hours. I scared my husband to death...I even scared myself. I ended up having to call in, which I'm sure I'll get in trouble for because that is an issue as well. Anyway, I just told them I had a family emergency...I would really rather not have them know. I'm just not sure of where to go from here. I've never had an episode quite this bad before. I have an appt today with my Dr. I'm sure he'll change my meds, but I think I need more then that. I've never been to a therapist before and I'm thinking that might be very helpful. My question is, what do I do about work? Do I approach my boss and tell her what is going on? Did I mention she was the type to let everyone know whats going on, no matter how personal? I just really don't know where to go from here. Any thoughts?
    Been there. You can get a note from your dr. putting you out of work for 2 weeks or whatever you need, with a medical they cannot make noise - and the Dr. doesn't have to say why.

    Do you have a regular psychiatrist? it is always a good idea to have counseling with the medications, they work together. Also there is peer support such as Depression/Bipolar Support Alliance (don't have to have bipolar) which is free and might give you a place to vent.

    NOT FUN I know. I am so sorry you are going through this! It is very painful to have people judging you - I had one coworker who kept bugging me and teasing me bec. I wasn't working much. So one day, when it did not push my buttons as much, when I was somewhat calm and not defensive at that moment, I said: "you know what? You cannot see people's insides. You have no idea about someone's health, family issues, nothing. How do you know your digs are not hitting home and hurting somebody? You think you are kidding around but how do you know? You need to quit picking on people like you do. Not just me, but you do it to everybody." He was shocked, and kinda (lol) stopped. Either he didn't realize he was doing it, or he never had anyone stand up to him before. But at least I had that off my chest and didn't feel so self-conscious around him. I felt better.

    As to telling the nurse mgr I wouldn't divulge anything, again w/ a drs note you don't have to. But you can go to employee assistance and ask them what you should do about that, I believe they have to keep everything confidential (still, I didn't not feel comfortable doing that)

    As to the coworkers, people just don't like feeling pressured and when people are out sick, it can be frustrating. I am sure if they knew what you were going thru they would not be as critical (plus, I can read things into people that aren't there). I know when I've gone thru those periods I have felt VERY bad and self-conscious, it could be part them and part you that is causing you to feel that way.

    I don't know if I am making sense, haven't been up long...

    take care, stay in touch, check in anytime!
  11. by   pca_85
    Why didn't I find this thread earlier??? I'm an lpn student, I keep my diagnosis of MDD and PTSD to myself. It's well managed and I'm healing I totally agree with not sharing any info with people you work or go to school with, once you say the words, it's like throwing a pebble in a pond, starts small, but the effect is widespread and lasts.
  12. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from pca_85
    Why didn't I find this thread earlier??? I'm an lpn student, I keep my diagnosis of MDD and PTSD to myself. It's well managed and I'm healing I totally agree with not sharing any info with people you work or go to school with, once you say the words, it's like throwing a pebble in a pond, starts small, but the effect is widespread and lasts.


    Welcome!

    well at least we have "here" to talk about it and vent!

    xo
  13. by   dnnc52
    It is weird that in my many years of nursing I have seen a few co-workers,deal with depression and addiction, and yes lost one of my co-workers to suicde. But it always seems that the addict nurse back from re-hab was supported and given a chance, where as the other with history of depression, or behavior disorder even after they get tx and straighten up justs get shafted, a stigma and even blackballed.

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