Nurses struggling with mental illness - page 21

I was just wondering if there are any other nurses who struggle with mental illness. It seems to be one disability that is met with little tolerance and support in the medical field. I do have major... Read More

  1. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from catz
    its so sad when we have to let them go isnt it. thats y i got the 2nd cat whitney is well getting on, i canot survive without a cat but once she goes ill not be able to get another one so got one now. plus they company for each other. im sorry u lost one of yours.

    deression sucks.im sorry your dragging down there too, and i do hope they do manage to do sumat wiht your meds. it aint no fun when ya can hardly stand yourself i know.

    as for me its an act, im trying to convinve myself im fine whenim so far form it well ya know the story lol. i had a very nice mega up 2mths over the summer and i want that back now lol. the docs still arent listening to me, or dont believe me or summat. apparently cos i used to be a nurse im spoosed to be able to identify exactly how i feel and why i feel like that. so im mega pissed off wiht them lol.
    so i hvae nicely locked myself away in my own little place, avoiding all my usual hangouts online and avoiding everyone as much as i can irl too. but at the same time im not as depressed as i have been, and i havent completly given up yet.
    Gee and when you DO log all your symptoms and experiences, they think you (I) are faking - numbskulls! OOO that name just doesn't cut it LOL

    Glad to hear from you hon, we used to have so much support going on that other thread - it was great. {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{Catz}}}}}}}}}}}
  2. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from karine2

    i have struggled with depression i think since actually grade three but wasn't diagnosed with depression until age 12 and since then i have struggled with chronic and severe depression with some ups and some really really downs including hospitalizations. included in there is an eating disorder that started at age 11 of which i am still dealing with today and i'm now 26.
    i just started nursing school in september and am struggling emotionally and eating disorder-wise. everything jsut feels so overwhelming and like so much and i'm not even in clinical yet, that's not til next semester so when i think of next semester i'm overcome by anxiety.
    but i am on meds and see a therapist weekly and go into an ed unit on the weekends for help with that.

    i'm just worried that even though nursing is what i always wanted to do, that maybe it or i'm not cut out for it because of my depression and how my mind tends to think. i've wondered too that maybe i've been reading the stories on here too much and it has just scared me?? it's just got me thinking that nursing maybe is too stressful for me and too hard.

    but this thread has helped to reassure me a little bit. i would just have to find my nice. my interest areas are pediatric mental health or pediatric oncology and i think i could do those. i plan on staying far far away from the er, medical surg and those ones.

    i just don't know what's going to get me through the rest of this year.
    i'm also in a cbl program and i'm not liking it.

    karine2

    karine - so nice to hear from you! you would be amazed how many nurses on this board have had depression or are on meds etc - if you do a search on "depression" you can find some of those old threads.

    the point is, many of your fellow students know about your experience, it's good to have a close friend to confide in. and of course you can pm anyone on this board that you relate to.

    don't feel you must make hard and fast rules about what you will do when you "grow up" lol - keep your mind and heart open and you will end up where you are supposed to be.

    god bless you
  3. by   RENAISSANCE RN
    Quote from karine2

    i have struggled with depression i think since actually grade three but wasn't diagnosed with depression until age 12 and since then i have struggled with chronic and severe depression with some ups and some really really downs including hospitalizations. included in there is an eating disorder that started at age 11 of which i am still dealing with today and i'm now 26.
    i just started nursing school in september and am struggling emotionally and eating disorder-wise. everything jsut feels so overwhelming and like so much and i'm not even in clinical yet, that's not til next semester so when i think of next semester i'm overcome by anxiety.
    but i am on meds and see a therapist weekly and go into an ed unit on the weekends for help with that.

    i'm just worried that even though nursing is what i always wanted to do, that maybe it or i'm not cut out for it because of my depression and how my mind tends to think. i've wondered too that maybe i've been reading the stories on here too much and it has just scared me?? it's just got me thinking that nursing maybe is too stressful for me and too hard.

    but this thread has helped to reassure me a little bit. i would just have to find my nice. my interest areas are pediatric mental health or pediatric oncology and i think i could do those. i plan on staying far far away from the er, medical surg and those ones.

    i just don't know what's going to get me through the rest of this year.
    i'm also in a cbl program and i'm not liking it.

    karine2

    karine,

    i just wanted to let you know... that alot of people have this and it is highly treatable... please don't put yourself down....

    read the biography of marie curie and you will see how "depressed" people can be nobel prize winners.

    thank god the dsm didn't exist then.... they would have probably said that she had mdd and ocd.

    please don't limit your self. but know your limits.
  4. by   catz
    yup zoe aint no pleaseing them, get accused of lieing either way and ggrrr. yeh that thread was real good for suppor wasne it. ((((((((((zoebobody))))))))
  5. by   Jessy_RN
    You sound like you handle things very well.
  6. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from catz
    yup zoe aint no pleaseing them, get accused of lieing either way and ggrrr. yeh that thread was real good for suppor wasne it. ((((((((((zoebobody))))))))

    {{{{{{{{{{{{{Catz}}}}}}}}}}}}

    I miss sphinx. She used to write a lot. I hope she is doing all right!
  7. by   Liddle Noodnik
    Quote from Future_RN_Jess
    You sound like you handle things very well.

    You, who? LOL!

    {{{{{{{{{{{{Jess}}}}}}}}}}}
  8. by   MagicalThinking
    i have anxiety too. actually i have panic disorder...my life really changed when my doc put me on the right meds....i take zoloft and seroquel to chill me out at night...and i have ativan just in case of emergencies...but my doc has been teaching me cognitive behavioral therapy for panic attacks and anxiety and it's been really great. i highly suggest finding better meds and therapy. good luck.
  9. by   dthfytr
    I've struggled with major depression all my life, didn't know it till I was 50. Caused me and others lots of heartache. Finally found a counselor and psychiatrist who saw it and got me straitened out. I'm on several meds for major depression, doing really well career wise. Biggest help came when counselor had me write up a start to finish ER chart of myself as a 5 year old. Only then did I see that if this were real, I'd be required to call the police on the (my) father. Suddenly my entire life came into clear perspective.

    I've been in nursing over 20 years, and often told patients that a broken heart hurts as much as a broken arm. A broken arm is just easier to see, and thus treat.

    Nurses struggling with mental illness? Who says we can be better than mere mortals? EVERYBODY IS CRAZY! Only a few of us get caught! My struggles made me a better nurse. This meant better care for my patients, and this made for a better world. Stay away from any nurse that says they've never been sick.
  10. by   geekgolightly
    I have been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Major Depression off an on since childhood. I was hospitalized for a year and a half, and in a group home for 6 months as a teen. In my twenties, I didn't know up from down and tried to destroy myself every chance I got. I stopped self destructive behaviors when I was 24. At age 27, I was able to keep it together enough to enter nursing school, and it was nursing school that kept me together enough to meet my husband and be stable enough for a real relationship and have since become more of who I have wanted to be rather than who I have always feared I was.

    Nursing school saved my life. If you really want it, go for it. Yes, it is stressful, but I was filled with such a sense of accomplishment just entering the program and each exam or clinical that I completed and performed well in, was a reinforcement that I can beat all the crap that had been beating me down my entire life. For anyone who is doubting going to nursing school because of mental illness, don't! It can be the healthiest thing you have ever done.
  11. by   geekgolightly
    Quote from dthfytr
    I've struggled with major depression all my life, didn't know it till I was 50. Caused me and others lots of heartache. Finally found a counselor and psychiatrist who saw it and got me straitened out. I'm on several meds for major depression, doing really well career wise. Biggest help came when counselor had me write up a start to finish ER chart of myself as a 5 year old. Only then did I see that if this were real, I'd be required to call the police on the (my) father. Suddenly my entire life came into clear perspective.

    I've been in nursing over 20 years, and often told patients that a broken heart hurts as much as a broken arm. A broken arm is just easier to see, and thus treat.

    Nurses struggling with mental illness? Who says we can be better than mere mortals? EVERYBODY IS CRAZY! Only a few of us get caught! My struggles made me a better nurse. This meant better care for my patients, and this made for a better world.

    You rock, dthfytr!

    especially love this....
    Stay away from any nurse that says they've never been sick.
  12. by   krisssy
    I want to thank the last two posters for what they said. I just love this site. I have just been accepted at grad school for my MS in psychiatric nursing. I had some problems due to my childhood, and then five years ago I was severely traumatized by something. The trauma was so severe and major that I was hospitalized for post traumatic stress disorder. I took notice of the good and bad in what I observed of all members of the staff. It was at that time in my life that I decided to become a psychiatric nurse and help people with psychiatric illnesses. I took a refresher course and asked to spend some time on a psychiatric unit where I continued to observe. What I saw made me want to be part of helping people. Because of my own trauma and illness, I believe I will be a better psychiatric nurse than I would have been under other circumstances. Empathy is gained by suffering yourself. Without empathy, how can anyone be a nurse? Unfortunately, some people including our fellow nurses are judgemental about nurses who have had problems and their ability to help others. "No matter who says what, you should accept it with a smile and do your own work" Mother Theresa
  13. by   OURN83
    I feel kind of weird asking this question, but I'm getting worried about my mental health. ever since I've been accepted to nursing school I have been almost unable to stop thinking about it (what i'm going to be doing, if i am going to change from this experience, i am honestly really scared) i figure this is all probably normal pre-nursing jitters, but one thing i've really been thinking a LOT about is how i am going to handle seeing patients die. I keep running through scenarios in my mind, how i might feel about each one.. (an older person, a baby, a child) I am making myself sick over this. I think so much about death. About everyday I will look up the news and read about bad things that have happened (car wrecks, people being killed, whatever) It's like I WANT to think about it but really I don't... I think my husband is starting to think i'm going crazy because lately I keep bringing up whether he believes in God, and what he thinks will happen when he dies.
    What is wrong with me??? Is this normal? I wish I would stop obsessing over it. Will it get easier or should I think twice about exposing myself to it everyday as a nurse?

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