Hello, Hanna, and welcome to Allnurses.com!
As a site Guide I especially want to welcome you, as I too have bipolar disorder and can relate to just about everything you've said. There are a few of us here who are very open about being BP and who are willing to talk about our experiences with the illness, as well as share how we cope (or sometimes DON'T cope) with the stresses of nursing.
After you have made 15 posts, you'll be able to use our Private Message system (you can access it now, but won't be able to respond to PMs until reaching the 15-post minimum) and "chat" with us if you like.
Personally, I'm all for getting MI out into the open and discussing it. Things only look scary in the dark; once they're brought out into the light, they lose a lot of the fear factor. I think it's that way with the stigma surrounding psychiatric conditions, and we who deal with these illnesses are the ones who will have to speak up and dispel it once and for all. No one is going to do it for us.
If you like, please visit my blog (it's found on my profile page). During the year since I was diagnosed, I've written two articles about this very subject: "The Stranger Within: Living with Mental Illness" and "Who The Heck Am I Now?" along with a Break Room essay called "After the Whirlwind" (written toward the end of a severe manic episode, hence the overuse of metaphors
Once again, welcome, and I hope you'll enjoy the site and get to know people here.