hi.. ive been out of nursing for almost more down 5 years. i quit many years ago due to anxiety. a little info about me, aside from having anxiety and depression, i have extremely low self esteem and i am highly sensitive and forgetful. i forget things in a matter of 1, 2, 3 seconds. It happens often now, and my doc gave me something to "cure" my inattention. (forgetfulness). The dc check my memory and i was negative for neurological disease. I got a perferct score on the test. Ok going back, The dose was increased but... i dont find relief. What bothers me is if i went back to being a nurse, i wont be able to control my anxiety and i was so frustrated with my forgefulness. I am not good with details. I read somewhere that depressed people are prone to this. I often make errors when i write something , lets say a info sheet in the hospital. Like when u are about to get confined. I didnt recognized that i should put the last name first, although it was indicated.
2 years ago i saw a pdoc and he said that everything that i wrote in the paper (everything that i felt during the training) was begginer's jitters. I mean he is a doctor. He knows what he is talking about. But why do i still feel this way?? I just feel i will be overwhelmed when im on the area. i dont know what to do. I need to make decision fast.
I dont want to go to doctors anymore. They cant solve my inattention or forgetfulness no matter what meds they give.