Since I got very depressed in 1987 following a severe health issue( I had just finished working 8 years in charge of a Burn Center) I was reported to the IPN for depression. I jumped through all of their hoops,sat in groups of addicts who mainly talked about how to beat the urine screens and showed up nodding off from pills. I went to the doctors they wanted me to see,I was cleared and cleared again. I did have some issues from work mainly because the IPN would only let me work in hospitals and hospitals are only hiring for their hardest to staff units like Bone Marrow Transplant. I also broke my back and have a fusion and an immune problem and would get ill after working in these units. I couldn't physically do it. Mentally I was on top,I know my stuff,I have worked in critical care all my career but it doesn't seem to matter.
Basically in the IPN I couldn't take a job I could succeed in and because I wasn't succeeding they kicked me out. Now my license will be suspended.
I'm sorry for the whiny self indulgent nature of this post but I feel like I wasted my life now. The IPN screwed me royally and I don't know what I'm going to do with the rest of my life.