I was clean and sober for 9 years through AA and LOVED my recovery.. then got pregnant and had severe HG with multiple hospitalizations and drifted away from meetings and my sponsor. I went back to work when my son was 6 weeks old and felt like I was doing fine and maybe I didn't need meetings.. LOL
I transferred to ER and got injured at work. I was given Valium and Norco for a back injury and because I wasn't staying active in my recovery it never occurred to me to stay accountable.. my addiction kicked in and I started diverting narcotics at work. I knew it was insane on some level but I was already sick in my addiction. Just last week I finally turned myself in to my management and diversion.. and stopped using. I have 8 days clean and sober today. I'm just starting the process with CA diversion (intake appt is this week) and am going to meetings and in treatment. Working with a sponsor again. GOD I feel so relieved!!! I kept trying to quit but I couldn't until I surrendered everything.. if anyone has any words of wisdom about the diversion process in California is appreciate any advice. I feel so blessed to be alive and sober today! I'm so grateful that diversion exists for us!