First, I would like to take this opportunity to congratulate you for realizing that you had a problem, and deciding to do something about it. Let me tell you up front that I have never been an addict, but I have at least some understanding about how hard it is to break addictions hold over you.
Most of my family were addicted to some kind of drug or another. On the one extreme my father was addicted to heroin before I was born. One day (and it took a WHILE for this to happen) he just realized how badly he ****ed his life up and quit, cold turkey. Well, not 100% cold turkey-He did get on a methadone program. But he skipped as many doses as he could until it became too much to bear before taking his next one. He said it was the worst time in his life as he felt "like he was dying for six months." But he wanted to move on with his life. Then he just stopped showing up at the methadone clinic completely and rode it out. Again he said he "Felt like ****," but it eventually stopped. Now, you would never guess he was ever addicted to anything, least of all heroin. He's a retired Diesel mechanic now. He's been drug free for my entire life and has never thought about going back. In fact, when myself or one of my siblings bring his past up he says it makes him sick. He actually gets nauseous thinking about it now.
On the other hand, My mother and my step dad were on a methadone program for as long as I've known them (again, heroin) . But unlike my dad, they showed up like clockwork at the meth clinics. In fact they sometimes bought some from others on the program (as they were not required to take their doses in front of a counselor, many of the clinics pt's sold their methadone on the streets). Also they were doing whatever pills they could get their hands on as well (xanax, placydils, valiums...) and were pretty open about it. Long story short, my step dad died when I was 11 due to his lifestyle. My mom several years later tried to quit. She did in fact stop the pills while I was in the military. I understand that this WAS NOT PRETTY for her... I was always deployed so I really couldn't be there for her. As far as the Methadone went, She quit the program, but still bought it on the street as needed. She passed in 2002 due to her lifestyle.
So again, while I personally never been an addict I have some experience with addiction. Enough so that I understand how hard it must have been for you to decide to stop. So again, congratulations. That was the most important step in fixing your life. I also congratulate you for being clean for the last two years. Like "Meriwhen" posted above, these two clean years are the real proof that you have put the blood and sweat into atoning for your past. Please, PLEASE keep it up.
Also, I want to tell you that I believe you made an excellent choice in not applying for reinstatement of your license as soon as you were able. It shows that you know your limits, and that your addiction has cleaned up at least to the point of making good judgements. I believe that this will also be considered by the BON. I hope it will be, anyway.
Addiction is a horrible thing. It's horrible because unlike most other ailments, a team of Physicians and Nurses can do little more than guide you along the necessary path to healing, and it is up to the addict to follow that path. It is ENTIRELY up to the addict to "Cure himself"
However, compared to most other serious ailments anyway, addiction is a good thing. Because again, it is ENTIRELY up to the addict to "Cure" themselves. And if the addict truly wants to escape the addiction, and is willing to put in the necessary time and effort (and I'm sorry, but it is A LOT of time and effort...no way around this), they WILL get their lives back. I know this for a fact. I've seen it.
Good luck in all your future endeavors, OP. I wish you the best. and please, keep it up.