Agree with nowimclean on establishing roots in AA or a similar sobriety group, if you haven't already. Congratulations on staying sober and getting your LPN.
And.....just a few words of advice from a still-recovering alcoholic with just over 20 years' sobriety: Please don't make the mistake of believing that you're totally "recovered". Alcoholism, like any addiction, is a chronic
disease with lifelong consequences, and even if we stay clean/sober for the rest of our days, we are never truly cured. I've seen too many people fall flat on their faces after five, ten, even 30 years of abstinence.......all it takes is ONE moment of weakness, and they're right back where they started from.
From the tone of your post, I get the sense that your sobriety is still pretty new. I've always said that the hardest years of sobriety are the first five, plus the one you're in.
There's a lot of "stinkin' thinkin'" that goes on in those early years, and sometimes after decades, it's still possible to relapse, even if you don't actually pick up a drink. Last night I had the worst screaming fight I've ever had with my youngest son, and if there'd been any ETOH in the house, I just might have gotten into it---I needed the pain to go away, and that's how I used to make ALL my pain go away.
That is the closest I've ever
come to violating abstinence, and it frightens me that after 20 years, 1 month, and 11 days, I could e
ven THINK of going back to the old ways. But it points out the reality that full recovery from addiction is not within our grasp; the best we can hope for is to manage the symptoms successfully for the rest of our lives....one day at a time.