My heart goes out to you; we are in a similar boat. I am on probation and have been applying for nsg. jobs for a year now and have never received one "bite"....ie, no interviews at all. I have a time period within which I can work off the probation, but already a year has passed. I think I have another six months in which I can "take care of this"....I have been working as a CNA doing PDN with permission of the board after talking with my agency supervisor. I think the only reason this agency is willing to employ me is that I have worked for them for 30 yrs as a nurse, and they KNOW me. I am afraid I'm going to have to end up giving up my nursing license, and it is breaking my heart. It does seem ridiculous to be SO severely penalized for circumstances that are NOT even criminal. The message I get for having a flag on my license is that, no we will not even give you a chance. Who cares, except me and you, and all the others in this boat with us?
I was told, way back at the beginning of this ordeal, BY a board member, no less, to try applying at a dialysis center. I don't know if that'd work for you. It doesn't for me, because the one thing I am totally inept at is venipuncture; not 'afraid'...just have no aptitude at all.
You know, I just don't understand throwing a perfectly GOOD, reliable, experienced nurse under the bus. People have said it's the economy, the not-really-a-nursing-shortage, etc., and to not give up. Well how do I not give up when it seems, quite frankly, that I have been given up on?
I'm sorry, I don't mean to bring you down. I wish you all the best. I know how hard this is. I will pray for the both of us.