Jess, First and foremost, congratulations on your sobriety. You’ve made an excellent choice to give sobriety a chance. You didn’t say if this was your first effort or not, but it doesn’t matter one way or the other, it could be your last if do what is best for you and take the advice of others who have been down the same path that you are going to be going down. Other recovering addicts and alcoholics can be an invaluable source of wisdom and comfort in the days ahead if you will allow them to be. Sadly, I’ve known many newly recovering people who thought they knew best and declined the help of others, only to return to old habits and just the things they needed to avoid. My sobriety date is February 11th, 1996 or if you want to get technical September 18th, 2012 when I got up this morning, as I still go one day at a time. I may have been sober for 16 years or 6064 days, I’ve actually only been sober since I got up this morning. I am in just as much danger of taking a drink as an alcoholic who stopped drinking 2 days ago. I have to be just as vigilant as anyone else, or possibly even more so, because those who have long term sobriety sometimes become complacent and let their guard down, and that’s when that old demon can slip right back in. You might consider writing a journal. The journal would be a little more private of course, but in it you would track each individual day, write in it each night before you go to bed, your first or subconscious thoughts, but discipline yourself to not make any changes from the original entries, you want your original thoughts captured and not edited. After a while, you will be able to see where your journey started and where you are headed. I did my journal for a little over 4 years when I first got sober, and when I read it again several years later, I was amazed at myself and the things I thought and the changes I made in my life. Unfortunately, my computer crashed and I lost every bit of it. I had neglected to back it up. I would have loved to have kept it so I could read it again today. Anyway, Please avail yourself of the resources available, whatever they may be. If you want, you can contact me, or there are others who have said they would be willing to help. Just know that you cannot do this alone and that you do not have to.