I need support through this hard and scary time in my life.... About 15 months ago i made a medication error with a narcotic. I missed an order to decrease Vicodin from 2 to 1 and gave it accordingly. The following Monday i was called into my DONs office and questioned. I absolutely did not divert medication. I was taken to employee health for a drug screen. About 2- 3 weeks previously i had a hard time and accepted a Joint from a friend. I was not a regular smoker at all. Lesson learned. I haven't not taken any drugs since that incident. I made a promise to myself that even though i was not addicted to any substance it was not worth it. Needless to say i was terminated from my job and turned in to the BON. The BON gave me three choices. decided to surrender my license for a year and jump through all the hoops required to reinstate my license. I went in front of the BON last Thursday. I was put on a probationary license with the only stips being evals filled out every three months by my supervisor for one complete year and continue with drug monitoring program until evals are complete. Im now scared that no one will want to hire me. I have an interview on Monday. i dont know weither to be hopeful or not. I need all the friendly support i can get.