Hello all. I have posted on this board many times over the years and it always amazes me just how supportive everyone is so here goes....
I have been working on my RN degree for awhile now. I had to drop out a few years ago due to some family health issues. My mother has since recovered but my father passed away 2/05 from several pulmonary related issues. He was in hospice and went peacefully. My mother did not take it so well and had a nervous breakdown about a week after Dad passed away. She has several health problems and is on numerous meds, some of which are pain meds. After getting Mom straightened out, I found a job in a family practice office as a medical assistant which I loved. My Mom was in and out of mental stablity for a long time and is still after almost four years not completely over the death of my father. To make a long story short one day she called me crying and screaming about her pain levels and she couldn't take it anymore, could I please just kill her? After DAYS (and nights) of this, I couldn't take it any more so I made the biggest mistake of my life and I phoned in a bogus rx of vicodin for her using one the doctors that I worked for. It has been several years and I am still SO deeply ashamed just typing these words. I did it twice. Of course my Mom never questioned where I got the pills, she just took them. Deeply ashamed I quit that job before they found out what I had done but when I applied for another job they called there for a reference and but that time they had calls from the pharmacy and the local police. Obviously I did not get that job. I then applied for a job for a local cardiology office which I got and I was so happy and relieved but about three weeks after I started there, I had the Sheriff come to my home and arrest me for drug felony charges. I should note that after the one place had called the original office where I had worked and found out about what I had done, I went straight to the police department of the town where the pharmacy was and told them everything before I was even officially charged. I should also tell you I have NEVER been in trouble before for anything except maybe a speeding ticket. Anyway, the cardiology office never found out about the drug charges because when I applied, I hadn't been charged with anything.
Unfortunately, another practice bought the practice that I worked for and started the whole job application process including background checks. Guess what they found? I should also say that when I found out they were doing that, I went straight to my office manager and told her what I did three years earlier. SHe was suprisingly understanding and said don't worry about, we know your record with us (always got good evals) it will be okay. It wasn't. I lost my job three weeks ago and I don't know how I will ever found another one. I have applied EVERYWHERE, Walmart, Taco Bell, Dollar Store, etc. No one will hire an convicted felon and I can't get it expunged for at least another year. Not to mention EVER getting my nursing degree. How could I have done this to my life?
What am I going to do? My life is over. All I know how to do is this.