I have given up on the TN BON--I did get the Commissioner's info, but then I thought "this really isn't worth it. I shouldn't have to jump through all the hoops for mental illness".
If HPMP and the organization "ok" it, then I found a great volunteer opportunity (haven't applied yet, can't until approval) that is probably better than anything TN can give me. I am beginning to believe there are actually better leads in general in VA.
I think God leads us in the direction we are supposed to go....and He isn't fond of me helping in TN, now VA--I can be of use in VA. I am finding out that there are options and sometimes, when one door closes, it's because another door is opening/about to open that is better.
I have found the above circumstance, not once, but at least twice or more. It puts me more at ease and helps me get through the heartaches and "disappointments". I put disappointments in quotes because sometimes they are blessings, but at the time we see them as disappointments.
I don't know if it is having a servant's heart and the change of attitude--becoming happier--that has totally changed my luck or if it is looking at what I have and appreciating it, but I think I am setting myself up for my whole life to change for the better.
If the TN thing is ever meant to be, it will happen. But, it's in God's time. I was told God answers prayers with "yes", "not now", or "I have something better for you".
But, one thing I have to admit, I truly believe God made me a nurse for a reason. All throughout nursing school and all this misery, I used to tell God that if He wanted me to be a nurse, then He will have to help me.