well things r moving forward.....
I have returned to work. Thank God they have been cool, held my job. while I was in rehab and going through IOP.
When when completed HPRP gave me a "safe to pratice" release.
Now I am in ERP which is early recovery group. while "out there" I "achieved " a third DUI which is a felony here in Michigan. I have to report that to the state and will recieve a suspension of my licence.
This could last for 6 months or until their investigation is complete.
During which I will not be able to practice.
I will loose my drivers licence for 3-5 years. Thank God my hubby is willing and able to drive me around.
But most of all I lost myself
My identity is so intwined with being a nurse I feel invisible. Obviously this is an issuse I will need to deal with in counseling.
Have a freaked you out?
If I have I meant to
I had no idea how drinking could invade my life and mess it up so completely
BUT...... I am doing what I need to do
1. dont pick up the first one
2. go to meetings (find a cacadeus meeting also)
3. pray to the higher power of your choice
4. get a sponsnor (who is a medical professional)
5. work the steps
6. read recovery literature (AA Big Book for example)
7. stay thinking "one day at a time"
seven things ~ seven days a week
it is only way I have been able to make it