Re: Multiple Sclerosis
Wow, I’ve been looking over the net the last few weeks and thought maybe All nurses would have something. well they do lol.
I've been diagnoses with MS but ill see the MS specialist next week to begin treatment and I’m sure he will have allot of fun stuff to confirm for himself that it is in fact MS. I'm gunna tell my stories because I am bored, have nothing else to do and well I want to.
I'm an L&D nurse for about 7 years I've had symptoms, eye problems, numbness, weakness, fatigue, depression , pain etc etc.. I wrote them off as stress, age all normal stuff. in hindsight I can see that it wasn’t normal and I think I really knew at the time but anyway.
almost a month ago I was having a drink and thought "wow I am dizzy those 2 beers must have been really strong" I went to bed. when I woke up i still felt a little dizzy so i took my kids to school and went to bed. when i woke up I was violently ill. I couldn’t lift my head without the room spinning. My wife took care of me but i was kinda out of it and anytime I lifted my head i threw up over and over. after about 2 days of that she took me to the family doctor who gave me a shot of phengran. The doctor said it was stomach flu and dehydration. I was pretty sure she was wrong but I just sleep for like 26 hours. I woke the next day pretty much normal went to work and only noticed a little dizziness. I just tried to hydrate and by the middle of the week figured i must have gotten really dehydrated because vertigo isn’t normal for me nor is throwing up.
The next Monday, it was about 8 am and I felt that feeling again. I was dizzy so i went to bed and woke up sick again throwing up, room spinning and I couldn’t walk strait. I would get up and fall right back down. So i crawled around my house puking in a trash can. I don’t think my wife really knew what to do. I'm told it was a few days later but I am not sure. she sent me to the family doctor again. my daughter drove me and i was able to walk out of the car but I swayed and struggled to keep from falling. I saw someone else they thought i had maniers and that seemed likely to me . they made a referral to the ENT and I waited for my appointment. In the mean time I used the phenegran but told myself i needed to get control over the nausea and was able to. i was also able to teach myself to walk and only fall a little. after a few days I could drive and i felt that i was safe for other people on the road. the whole time i was dizzy and things would spin
finally 2 weeks after it all started i saw the ENT. he tested my hearing and although he was a little put off by the whole dizziness thing he and his assistant did some maneuvers aimed at fixing postural vertigo. he said i had postural vertigo. I knew that I didn’t and that it was more serious. he was very nice and said that if things didn’t improve to see him in 4 days and he would test for maniers. I knew it wasn’t maniers by then because my ears were fine and i didn’t have any of the other symptoms.
Things didn’t improve by the 3rd day (now 2 and a half weeks form the start) so I decided i had to go to the emergency room. Now as nurses I am sure you realize the gravity of that, I mean ERs are for people who are really sick , who are gunna die or cant take care of themselves but I was at the end of my rope. It was the only place I could think of where i would find an MRI and people who had to be responsible for me. The ER doc was nice but annoyed by me I never tell anyone I am a nurse but I could tell he thought i was crazy for being there. He ordered an MRI and they found 10 lesions on the brain as well as one on the spinal cord. The Nero was not an MS specialist and the hospitalist seemed a bit put off by his haste in diagnosising MS but I am pretty sure he was right or at least close.
I got 2 doses of steroids in the hospital and 3 more at home. I am suposed to see the MS specialist next week.
What bothers me more is the gait issue. I can walk almost normaly and a person watching wouldnt know. if you saw me stumble you might think i was drunk or just weird but my legs are very week and I have a weird falling senstaion and when I close my eyes I dont really knoe where i am in space. I still have waves of nusea but just burp them down and they pass. i could walk the halls but wonder about doing it all day and if seomene turns out the lights or grabs me (which is not unheard of in L&D) i can't promise i wouldn’t fall. I think i could do the physical parts of my job moving, lifting, supporting but it seems so risky.
so does anyone have anything like this? I know i can compensate for the vertigo but will I ever not have to be so conscious of where i am and how I am moving? does the strength in the legs return?
i ask every doctor and therapist i see, they all seem really happy with my ability to move around but no one will really answer the questions of long term progress. I assume its a mixture of them not knowing for sure and knowing that it wont ever be the same but i just don’t know.
For the long term MS seems manageable, it sucks but there are worse things. still the ataxia is really freqing me out. I am 34 years old and before this happened i was in pretty good shape. physically i still seem normal I just wonder what this mean for me.
i want to go back to work but If i ever hurt anyone ..well I couldn’t
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