You guys pulled me through

This is my first post. In May I was reported to the board for being impaired at work. I wasn't, but in going through the process of being evaluated, I was diagnosed as bi polar. I was reported to the board originally and they didn't just turn me over to IPN they suspended my license (never failed a drug test, no missing meds, just vague I was acting "funny). Because of all the people that shared their stories here and the advice that is given I knew to get an attorney ( I did and the suspension was lifted), to contact the IPN and go through their process and be willing to sign a contract. I have started my contract, and I don't have narcotic restrictions or anything, but I am on probation with the board for 1 yr. They don't trust the IPN to monitor my mental health, they felt IPN is more for addiction. (Sigh, it's their program/people but they don't trust them?). As this was all going on (and the board person I dealt with was just like all "you people" shouldn't be nurses and she just knew anyone who gets reported is an addict, etc), I didn't have anyone who had been through this to talk to, and the shame was overwhelming. But I found this site and it saved me. I knew I could get through this and come out a better nurse and better person. And I like my therapist and it's really helping. I have a 2 year contract but I'm back to work Monday (after 4/12 months off).. So I promised that when I made it through I would post and let anyone who is discouraged and feels like their world is crashing down, you can do it and get through it. And you will get a job. Just believe in your higher power and keep your chin up. It happened, it sucked really really bad, but I'm coming out on the other side stronger. Bless all of you!!!