The Patient I Failed - page 15

She knew what she wanted. She'd watched her husband of 52 years die on a vent, and followed his wishes to remain a full code. But she knew that was not what she wanted for herself. So, she... Read More

  1. Visit  nurseshellyjwk profile page
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    Dear nerdtonurse?
    I should have asked your permission first but I copied and pasted your article to my notes on facebook. I also "liked" your article so it came up as a link on my page. In the copied and pasted note your allnurses name is included and the date you wrote the article. I just wanted to share it with my friends because it really, really spoke to me. Honestly I cried like a baby when I read it and I've been a nurse for 11 years. I just wanted to let you know what I did, thank you for writing that and tell you I gave credit where credit is due. Thanks again for being so honest and sharing that with us.
  2. Visit  Nurse Evette profile page
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    This touched my heart! Speechless and priceless... This needs to be published in every nursing journal and magazine. Physicians need to read this also!
  3. Visit  Geekafiednurse profile page
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    I find this confusing... Anyone can choose DNR/DNI status; it is not reserved for the sickest of the sick or those with terminal conditions. I have experienced incidences where a family member recinded DNR status, because he or she was not able to "let go." Those experiences always seem to cause moral distress, because caregivers feel like he or she is ignoring the patient's wishes.
  4. Visit  nerdtonurse? profile page
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    Geek, in my state, a doctor has to sign off the DNR order, whether in the hospital or for a patient at home. Her PCP wouldn't do it (possibly because of the family dynamics he was so busy trying to stay out of).

    I wrote this several years ago, but I will see that sweet little lady's face forever. When my knees and back won't take the ICU anymore, it's my intention to become a home hospice nurse. I couldn't keep my patient from her fate, but maybe I can honor her memory by doing good where I can.
    Sister Fox likes this.
  5. Visit  jv3661 profile page
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    Your story is one that is definitely poignant and something we see as nurses often. You wrote a beautiful letter and it was touching. I want to play devil's advocate for a moment. The first thing we are taught in nursing school is not to judge. Funny, I might not remember the Kreb's cycle, but I sure remember being taught that unless you walk a mile in someone's shoes, you do not know what they are going through. I say this as someone who has worked hospice, oncology, psych and case management.......and as someone who lost both her parents. Even as a nurse, when you are in the situation, and don't want to lose a loved one, it is much more difficult to let go. As nurses we see it from one perspective, as children from another. When my mom, who was so vibrant and passionate about life, coded after cardiac surgery, I agreed to the code. Twice. She was a tough lady who made it through multiple cardiac surgeries in spite of having COPD and smoking like a fiend. It took open heart massage for me to realize what I was doing. Do I feel guilty? No. I did what I thought was right as a daughter, who didn't want to lose her precious mother, her best friend, her rock. When my dad was on vent, as a family, we fought about whether or not to extubate him.

    We are all entitled to our personal feelings. I have steamed inside on many occasions. But as a caregiver, I try to take care of the whole families needs and can feel the pain of this daughter.
    Last edit by jv3661 on Nov 14, '10 : Reason: spelling
  6. Visit  nerdtonurse? profile page
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    I just "Googled" the title of my article.

    Oh...my...God...

    I'm mentioned on hundreds of webpages and there's Twitter and there have been over 74,000 views of my article on this site alone....

    I think I'm going to take an Advil and lay down for a bit...

    Thanks to everyone who's read my article, and shared it. St. Augustine once said God would never allow an evil so great that good could not be brought from it, and perhaps this sharing, this conversation we're all "virtually" having can make a difference in at least one life. If it does, then there was good to come from this overwhelming sadness...
    JBudd likes this.
  7. Visit  landesmummy profile page
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    Dear NerdtoNurse?

    You have touched so many of us. I tell people regularly about your story & thanks to you, I finally made my will. I am a newer grad nurse & I will never forget what you taught us all.

    Many, many thanks to you.
  8. Visit  jenbp profile page
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    Unfortunately, I see this horror every day. I could tell stories enough to fill a novel regarding patients who have been tortured due to the family's wishes. I have even had a wife tell me that she needed her husband to stay alive for the pension check. I have had patients riddled with cancer who have said they do not want heroic measures, only to be talked out of it by family members. I don't think the families have any idea what horror and pain we cause when we are "doing everything we can!" Resuscitation is painful, torturous and cruel especially to those who do not want it or are so sick that it won't make a difference. Due to the litigious society that we live in, it is impossible for doctors and nurses to work without being worried about repercussions. Everyone is so worried about being sued, that the patient and their comfort comes second! That is just unacceptable! Why fill out a living will if it won't be honored and if a family member can override it? What's the point of even going through the trouble?? It is so frustrating and horrible to think that all I do is torture people for a living.
    Sister Fox likes this.
  9. Visit  ERnurseATL profile page
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    I'm crying...so sorry that you had to participate in that ...you seem to be a wonderfully caring nurse!
  10. Visit  Moeroe1 profile page
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    Wow. That was very moving.
    Her Will should've overpowerd her daughters wishes regardless of the woman's inability to speak for herself! At least she's now at peace with her husband, in heaven!! :heartbeat
    ERnurseATL likes this.
  11. Visit  heart428 profile page
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    i feel for you and also for the daughter.... it's never easy to let go... because at the back of your mind there is always that small voice of hope and the probability of what-if's... you wanted to respect the patient's wishes but to leave things as it was is difficult... watching someone you love die right before your eyes with the knowledge that you can't do anything... is one hard call... :'(
  12. Visit  NightRN2011 profile page
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    An amazing story, mahalo for sharing. This is a scenario we face far too often. No matter how often we say "If you love them, let them go on their terms", they don't listen. Even though I dislike the daughter's decision, when it's her time to go, I hope we follow her wishes. I agree, you didn't fail her, you gave the comfort and care she deserved in the given circumstances, but I understand your feeling the way you do.
  13. Visit  nicolelamp profile page
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    That daughter is selfish and if she really loved her mother she would have not put her through that, that poor lady all she wanted to do is die in peace. I surely will pass this on.

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