I absolutley despise my job. I work as a nurse in a intermediate/telemetry type floor. We are in the process of moving to a new hospital, so we were a telemetry unit and we are splitting into telemetry/intermediate care. We will be split evenetually but right now kind of combined...its weird.
Anyway, i HATE HATE HATE HATE my job. I i get so worked up on the way to work, up to the point i start getting massive headaches and offset my vertigo issues. I've always struggled with unexplained vertigo that comes with stress/anxiety. i can't stand patients and families who are so demanding and disrespectful.
I do my absolute best to put on my "fake smile" to please them. i'm a person of very short temper so it takes every ounce of energy in me not to slap some of them in the face. I got in trouble one time because a patient's daughter was giving me a really hard time and everything she said that came from her mouth started with "Well i'm a nurse and...." it ould have been totally irrelevant to what she had to say. For example: "Well i'm a nurse and i had an egg salad sandwich for lunch."
"Well, i'm a nurse and i have a kitten named Dutchess" (that was actually a real one).
She was SO disrespectul, rolled her eyes everytime i talked, very short answers. Finally i had it...i looked at her and said "I don't care if you are a nurse. I'm her nurse now and i will make the decisions on what i think is best for my patient."
Yup...i got in trouble for that one. But i explained everything to my manager and she, deep inside, i knew agreed she was being ridiculous. And i told her i just couldn't take it anymore. It went on for THREE DAYS, in 12 hour shifts and i was on day 4 with her. I snapped...yup.
Anyway, my point with that story is it wasn't this one time...it is ALL the freaking time. Patient's are so demanding. What on earth makes you think i want to "wipe your butt" when you can do it at home just fine? Ok...you have two broken arms, i will help you. But if you are here for i don't know...Chest pain observation and you can feed yourself the 50 trays of food you just ordered and open the soda bottle your family snuck you in, why would you not be able to wipe your own butt?? What makes people feel the need to be so darn needy like this?? Don't put on your call light for me to pour you a glass of water from the water pitcher sitting next to your hand. You are perfectly capable of doing it yourself (Im talking about people who CAN do it.) You are not a 65 year old baby, you are an adult who has wiped your own butt and poured your own water for i don't know, 63 years now??
Im sorry i have to vent. Makes me feel better. Does anyone else feel this way about nursing? I feel so stuck in it and i want to get out. What else can i do with my degree that i would enjoy??
Once my fiance and i are married we want to start a family right away. he has agreed for me to quit my job at that point to be stay at home. I'm afraid i will enjoy not being a nurse so much i may never go back. What other career choices do people ENJOY as a nurse? I have my BSN.
OP, I feel you. When I did hospice, one of my patients was Alz/Dem totally nutty but one that was for the most part in a happy place. I came in to do a regular visit and her son and his wife THE NURSE was there too. I visited with them while I did a quick check on her including vitals and THE NURSE quipped that I wasn't taking an accurate temperature, but in a really obnoxious way (I forget exact words) but she did not like that I didn't do an oral. The son mentioned that his wife was a nurse, and I immediately threw a direct question at her as to what type of nursing she did - turns out it was office and a tiny amount of SDS. Well, I said, OH! and ran right into educating her on hospice and the DX and decline of her mother in law. How I found on my first visit she could no longer tolerate oral temps - couldn't control what was in her mouth, and that was one of the cardinal signs of decline with her DX, swallowing would also be an issue. That, she had bit down so hard with the attempt at oral temp that I was lucky she didn't crack a tooth. I ended with a firm statement that these things you learn when you are a hospice nurse and you also learn how you need to adapt often to the patient's daily situation.
Last edit by netglow on Feb 13, '13