Anybody else feel like you're just not as caring and compassionate as other nurses? I think of myself as a caring nurse and I try to do the best I can by my patients. I love it when I leave at the end of a shift and I feel like everything was done well and my patients were well taken care of. However, I've been in some situations where I don't seem to be as sensitive as some of my coworkers when dealing with patients.
For example, one day another nurse needed to place an ng tube on a very confused patient with a bowel obstruction who was not very cooperative. Knowing he was going to be resistant, she asked for help from me and the charge nurse. She premedicated him with iv valium, we went in and his nurse tried to do it the nice way with the patient's cooperation but of course he fought us. Then we finally did it the way I would have done it from the start, which of course involved 4 of us restraining this very strong combative confused man while one of us inserted the ng tube. By the time we hooked him up to suction, it was really obvious how much he needed it.
Afterwards, the charge nurse and the other nurses were all saying how much they hated having to do that and just basically talked about how bad they felt for doing that to him. A new nurse who was there and just wanted to observe was horrified and is probably traumatized for life. Meanwhile I didn't get it. We did what had to be done and the patient was better off for it. If anything, I felt a sense of satisfaction and accomplishment. Am I some sort of unfeeling freak of nature or what? This is just one example of this where I feel like the odd woman out. Does anybody else have this problem?