I agree, I agree, I agree!!! Nursing school
was the best thing I ever did for myself. I had started out as an English major straight out of high school, and dropped out within four WEEKS!! because of various reasons, including the fact that I had no idea what I REALLY wanted to do. It took a very long time, a couple of college-major changes, and a lot of soul-searching before I decided on nursing, and when I did, it was like a revelation for me. I was absolutely, hands down terrified of starting school. I kept thinking, okay, I will never be able to remember all of those things. Those people are all smarter than I am. I am going to kill someone. I was completely intimidated. Add to that the fact that every one I had known had already recieved their MASTER'S degrees, and here I was contemplating what a 'friend' termed 'a TWO-YEAR degree at a little community college' (said snidely, I might add)! I got minimal support from other people around me. Thankfully, the people I cared about most (my parents and then-soon-to-be-husband) supported my decision and encouraged me to stick with it. I remember taking my pre-req's and thinking, Jeez, I can't picture myself actually in nursing school! It seemed sooooooo far away. When it was time to start, I thought I would vomit and pass out on the first day. I knew absolutely NO ONE in my program- I walked into lecture feeling like a total stranger and very lost and afraid. I met my closest friend that day, in our clinical group orientation. We both were so nervous, and were cracking semi-naughty jokes to break the ice! We now laugh about that over margaritas every other week. ;>P I think we all could talk about our experiences at length, over margaritas, of course, but suffice it to say that we ALL felt at least a little intimidated and a little insecure and a little unsure that we were making the right decision. It's what bonds us, it is what makes this board so successful. I mean, look at how all of us come together at this place to help each other and reassure each other. It's like a whole new family, one who painfully understands every night you spent with only two hours of half-sleep trying to finish a care plan that just HAD TO BE PERFECT OR YOU WERE GOING TO DIE RIGHT THERE ON THE SPOT. I miss the hell out of some of my classmates; nursing school was not only educational and interesting and challenging, but it was FUN. Congratulations on your choice. I hope that it fulfills you. Don't ever doubt that you are capable of succeeding in school- EVER. If you get down or get nervous, just think of yourself through your sons' eyes: Mommy is a superhero! She can do anything, and she will!!! ;>) Let their love for you empower you and know that you CAN do this!!! There are people out there that need compassion and love and tender care, and there is no reason in the world that you should not be able to give that to them. If you're feeling overwhelmed, remember also that soooooooooo many of us have kids or are married or broke or working on our second or third careers. I, personally, went through a marriage, a near divorce, a nervous breakdown (not mine!), a family death, near starvation, and bankruptcy!!! Here I am. Kristina B., RN. And I am not alone. And neither are you. ;>) GOOD LUCK!!!!!