Well, last time I posted, it was to follow my dream of working in the ER. HA! After a few posts of how excited I was, and some of the interesting things I'd seen, I'm back, feeling a little sheepish at the moment. I wrote a letter to the director of the Women's/Children's division at my hospital last weekend practically begging her to hire me back into NICU. Gosh...I made a terrible mistake. Once out of the NICU, I realized how much I had invested and learned there, and how much I really missed my babies. Don't get me wrong... ER is sure fast paced, and ours is one of the best in the country, but once I spent a few weeks on orientation, and saw truly how frenzied the pace is, how hateful and irresponsible the patients can be, and how you're expected to provide basic "patch 'em up" care and move them out, before getting another pt in, I realized I wanted to go back to NICU. So.....the W&C director is going to try and get me back in.....there is a policy that says I can't change jobs more than once in 12 months, but I'm not off orientation yet, an d they wouldn't have to orient me. I've pretty much forfeited my NICU day shift, seniority, etc. But at this point it doesn't matter. Am I a horrible person for wanting this, and leaving the ER so soon?
It's great to hear you reinforce what so many of us sometimes doubt about our love of the NICU.
I had a brief period of "doubt" about 5 years into my NICU career, thinking that I was "losing" my hard-earned adult-care skills. But I was realistic enough to realize that I didn't want to venture too far from my NICU home, so I went to work in an LDRP unit. It was a great learning experience, and I wouldn't trade it for anything, but I also returned to the NICU. For some of us, it is just in our blood!
I thank my lucky stars everyday that there are skilled and dedicated adult-care nurses who do the work that I could never do, so that I am freed up to work where I love!