VIRTUAL ATI

So,

I failed NCLEX, and was terrified to even test again..But, did it, and failed again. Now, a 2 time NCLEX failure, i'm down in the dumps ( a normal reaction, right?). Anyway, this time, I did research, I even signed up for the expensive ATI virtual program. I get a trainer, books sent to me, the whole deal. However, i've been working on ati for MONTHS, yes MONTHS.. and she works me to the point of exhaustion. I'm starting to think that maybe nursing is not for me. I realize i'm being quite negative, i'm just burnt out. The test my trainer has me take I find difficult, you have to reach a benchmark of "60%" or else she makes you do a specific focused review of basically reading the entire book, watching repetitive boring videos, and answer questions. I don't feel like im even learning. I always seem to get in the 50% benchmark, sometimes even high 40s. I'm starting to think that maybe i'm just not critically capable to be a safe Nurse. Anyone else get these scores and pass NCLEX?

oh, also I've tried many and I mean MANY programs...none of them seem to work...

Help!