I took the NCLEX for the 2nd time yesterday. The first time I failed with 265. When I was done I knew I didnt pass, I remember after 180 questions I just got frustrated and wanted to get out of there. I only took one break and was there the whole time. It was terrible! After I got confirmation of my non passing I gave myself a few days break. Then I signed up for a Kaplan class. The first test I took I got boarderline passing and my readiness test on the last day I scored 70%. I studied as much as I could the next 3 weeks. Yesterday I went by myself to the test and I planned accordingly. I promised myself that I would take my first break after 75 if the computer didnt stop and then after each additional 75. I brought snacks and some OJ. When I sat down at the computer my heart was racing!!!!! I mean I really thought I was going to have an anxiety attack. but I managed to take a deep breath and start my exam. I took my time with every question ( I told myself I wouldnt rush) and I really tried to critically think. I remember thinking that the questions were nowhere as bad as my first test. I kept plugging along and the ones I really didnt know I just tried to make the best guess. My computer shut off at 75. I was so happy until I got home and started thinking about things and how two of my friends failed with 75
I couldnt tell the level of the question so now I am thinking what if I thought it was easy because they were in fact easy because they were below the passing standard. OMG sometimes I wonder why I even chose to be a nurse. What we go through is awful!
I came home yesterday and after feeling good for about a second I started really realizing that I could fail. My husband pretty much stayed away from me and I went and rented 3 movies and I brownie sunday from Oberweis. It was definiately chow fest at my house yesterday! When I wasnt watching a movie or surfing through Allnurses I was munching on something. Today I tried to keep busy. but now Im starting to get that sick feeling again. Thats why I decided to write. I will know tomorrow and Im scared to even go to the Pearson Vue site. Im going to try not to think about it (yeah right)
Thanks for listening!