by female12233

I am taking my Nclex RN exam for the second time this up coming week. I am extermely nervous and feel an immense amount of pressure from the hospital that I am working at to pass. Which after an extremely long day at work yesterday caused me to crack. Our hospital is going live in the beginning of August with an all computer system which more or less assumes that every nurse IS already an RN and makes it very difficult for the LPN to work within their scope of practice. This has me scared what if I don't pass and then we go live with this new system and I initiate that care plan instead of the RN by accident. I wouldn't have ment to but at the same time I could still get fired at the very least for it. Needless to say an aweful anxiety attack hit me on the way home along with a whole new fit of tears. Thank God I was alone in the car! But then I realized something. IF I don't pass I'll be OKAY the world wont stop spinning the sky wont start falling. What's else is I realized that I made it through not one but two accelerated programs for nursing. I've gone to college twice and passed both times. I'm the only one in my family who's done that. I am smart. I am determined. And I can do this it MAY take me longer then some and it WILL be challenging and filled with a lot more ups and down. BUT that just means when I can boldly stand and call myself a REGISTERED NURSE that I'll have know that I did that. That I worked my butt off and that I earned that. That I deserve to call myself RN instead of feeling like doom and gloom as I walk down the same dark hallway in the leading day to my exam I can now see a light at the end of the tunnel. Where as none of you may even care a like bit about my own personal experience this was such an AH HA moment that I had to write it down and share it. Just in case someone is going through the same experience and hopefully they will too will have an AH HA moment. Thanx for reading...

Re: To overcome

I know what you're talking about. I, too, have two degrees, and took a lot of time to get them! But I also believe in my capabilities, and you should, too! I hope you get some peace and rest before your test. Just have the confidence in yourself that you can do it, and then who knows what can happen? Maybe, even before you know it, you'll be signing into that computer, because YOU are the RN! ))

Good luck!

Re: To overcome

I will also be taking the NCLEX for the second time this upcoming week. Like you, nursing was my 2nd degree and have a job I love. Throughout these past couple of months there have been more than a few times where I've had anxiety attacks just thinking about the test. The most difficult thing can sometimes be to motivate yourself on a daily basis and keep yourself from dwelling on the negative. Hopefully we will both have good news at the end of the week!! My prayers are with you

Re: To overcome

Good luck, I had a few meltdowns of my very own before taking the nclex.