Should I give up in taking NCLEX-RN or not?

First and foremost, I wanted to tell a story how I ended up in the nursing field. I graduated Bachelor of Science in Commerce Major in Management Accounting in another country outside the USA. During my college days or shall I say High school days (you know time to decide what course in college you are taking) my schoolmates and classmates, even friends and relatives or even my brother and sis-in-law chose to be in the Nursing field. Take note I am afraid of seeing bloods, or even seeing a person in the television undergoing a surgery. And to fast forward, I worked at my dad's business in the bookkeeping department as a bookkeeper.

When my great grandmother got sick I had the privilege of taking care of her and realize I had a compassionate heart when giving care. But it didn't start there that I decided to go to Nursing school. I worked here in one of a well known bank with good insurance but then I was let go due to no available work, in short-Laid off.

I tried to look for a job and to a point that I decided to apply whatever company or line of job it was, but unfortunately did not find one. And that was the time I decided to change my career to Nursing. I told myself that I will try to do Practical Nursing School first and see if I am going to like it. I finished the course and took the test 1 time and voila, I passed. Glory to God it is because of Him that I did pass. It was a miracle for me.

Years have passed and still working as an LPN, the field of nursing is getting in demand and now very competitive. I decided to pursue with the BSN. Not to boast for myself I finished my BSN in 2015.

Sad to say and at the same time feeling embarrassed, I failed for the 4th time in taking the NCLEX. Yesterday was the day of my exam and today I found out I failed. I tried different reviews, live in class, or self study books but unfortunately no positive results yet. I spent thousands of dollars just to try a different strategy of studying just to pass. 4th time? I felt ashamed.

Now the question is should I give up or keep on going? I am frustrated right now of myself but I cannot blame myself either because I know I gave my best in studying plus with small kids and a full time job! I just wanted to cry right now. I think this is where the statement says When you stumble it is not the "how many times it happened, but how many times you keep on standing up right away to finish the game". What to do next? Where to go to or to whom to ask for help! Now this is where the line says that we need to do our part and God will do the rest right? (I am a believer)

My goal is to Pass the boards, work in a hospital to gain more experience but where is it going? Should I continue? Should I give up or not? Even me cannot answer that right now. But I know things happen for a reason. All I can do right now is wait, pray and study, because In due time I will be rewarded if I don't give up.

Feel free to comment but please respect each others points of view. I would love to hear good encouragements that will help individuals who feel like what I'm feeling now to be lifted up and not to give up1