Re: Really discouraged after testing today
Warning: the post is bit pessimistic, so please try not to read it if u are tseting tomorrow or something.

I tested yesterday and I felt the same way

Now, I don't feel like saying anything, but just go into hiding



I'm so afraid to even check the site. At times, I feel, maybe I passed, but more of the times, I feel, I failed. Yesterady was just a very horrible day for me. I cried for little bit - do not know what it is. If it was exhaustion ?

I'm so afraid to check the website. I don't want to feel this again

But, I know my april Family, friends and everyone is praying for me, so that's keeping me hopeful, until I get the restult. I'm just thinking, it's probably already there on pearson vue with the words, passed or failed (the pearsonvue employee told me 2 days) so, it should be tomorrow. But I'm just afraid to check. I feel like why waste another money I don't have checking the pearsonvue just to see failed. So, I'm checking the BON site. Today, I almost got shocked coz I just saw the last name and it matched mine, I thought it was me, but it was someone else



For a second, I was like oh my God
I've just been through mixture of emotions and thinking what will happen? if I fail or if I pass.
I only got aroundI think 70-80 coz I wasn't keeping track of questions. I don't even know where the question number was. But, I was ready to sit for as much as 250, when the computer turned blue on me without even giving me 90, I felt helpless. I thought to myself, if it had given me more questions, atleast I'd have more chances

. If I fail, I must be the most dumbest person in the world, even the computer will think that. Some of my non-nursing friends they don't get it. They tellme, u should know how u did it

I juust want to cry, and then other times I'm fine. God is good. I got fill in the blanks only for me calculation questions (yes I got ped calculation questions too). Some of them were twisted in every possible way. one, I spent 10 minutes - calculated it 3-4 times to check the answer and make sure I got the same answer all times. 5-6 SATA, one sata was MED

I only got very few neuro and CV, more endocrine, musculoskeletal, some GI, some GU, quite a few Peds and Obe and Psych. I feel like my strength is psych and then it kept giving me psych quite a few, so I'm sitting there, what's going on?????? Most stupid thing is, one question had lab value and I read it as 500,000 when it was actually 50,000


That one mistake I picked on (coz I was thnkign okay that's highhh, now what would I see when it's high, then I looked at it again and it was 50,000- as answers didn't make sense) oh God, that's one mistake I picked on. God knwos what I did or didn't do on the rest.
Infection questions quite a few, some delegations, some who would u see firsts or assess firsts, then some what will u do next? what's ur immediate action? the ones with lab values, I didn't get very many (thanks God). 5-6 Meds, maybe 1 or 2 recall, I think (Like okay this is the situation, now what s.s will u see? something like that.
So, right now I'm here lurking on the site

. During exam, I was Okay. Although, not extremely comfortable like right now. But, I think it was the prayer from my April family and others and family, frineds and me that helped me stay calm during exam. But once I was out, I checked two questions (SATA - one drug and the other was Infection SATA), I know for sure those two I got wrong. Last question I'm not sure if it is right or wrong (I think it was an application question)
Last night couldn't really sleep. Today, I'll prolly sleep coz tomorrow God knows what will happen. But u know, I want to pass like everyone else ... I'm tierd of struggling.

- Vent. Thank you for reading it. And thank you to everyone for praying for me, that is all I got. If I pass, prayer is what saved me
Good luck Amber, me and others who are waiting on our results and to the ones testing soon.
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