I was a mess this morning.Got maybe 3 hrs of sleep. Tried to eat a good breakfast but could only take afew bites b/c is was so nervous. I did not map out my route to my testing center and ended up across the street from it. Finally make it into the center.During the test I doubted most of my answers. I was always stuck between picking one of two options. It feels like a blur. I took about 2 hours and 75questions. I held it together pretty well. Whenever I would get discouraged Iwould mentally tell myself “You got this”.
When I got to my car my 9y/ohad text me “I believe in you MOM, you can do it”. I fell apart… all the emotions I had been stuffing away finally came to the surface and I was in mycar crying like a baby. I didn’t know what to do. Should I sit there, drive home, go to the park? I was so used to studying, I couldn’t think of any other activities. I could not figure out if I did good or not. I am a big believer in signs, so On my way home I turned on the radio and my RN class graduation song came on,which gave me a lil hope.
I got home and kids ran up tome hugging and congratulating me. I was so afraid of failing and disappointing themb/c they have sacrificed so much along with me during nursing school
and during nclex prep. I was too nervous to try the PVT right away.
I snuck into my bedroom and logged onto youtube to watch directions for the pvt. With each click and entryI made, I wanted to vomit….
Pearson vue said delivery successful and would not let me enter cc information. Message said sumin like I could not schedule to test and to contact my board!!!!!!!!!!! So if I did it right….. I think I PASSED!!!!!!!!!! I feel like I need a real actual license # b4 I can relax. I am so numb I haven’t screamed with joy yet bc it seems unreal. Thank you to everyone that threw me sum love here on allnurses. I will update more later. But right now I have some long overdue play time with my kids.