I recently took the NCLEX exam this last Thursday. I found it difficult as most of you that have taken it know...That being said, I recently learned that I failed it. This post is intended for those of you like me or those that will soon take it. Knowing you are not alone throughout the journey of the NCLEX is essential regardless of your outcome.
The support I have recieved both pre and post my exam has been overwhelming. It is comforting to know that so many people out there care about your success, but even so it still doesn't seem to change the initial stab failure inflicts...We all hurt sooner or later. It might be from a failing relationship or it might be because of an exam like this one.
While it is still fresh in my mind I wanted to take the time to share the emotions I have been feeling. Much of my cohort has recently been posting their accomplishments of passing the NCLEX on their social media accounts. While I am so very happy for them and desperately want to one day share in that gratification, I can't ignore my ugly, negative, side either....I feel as though I need to be alone and wine for a while. I must admit I've even snarled in discust the past few days with each new passing post I see, but I know those emotions are only an inner expression of something deeper. I know that if the posts really bothered me I could simply log off my social media account or deactivate it for a while. I also know that even though it is painful to see others surpass me it is therapuetic.
Observing posts described in the above paragraph or reading inspirational stories on allnurses.com allows me to keep faith. Perhaps now is not the time for me to access that faith but knowing it is there for a later date helps me keep my composure. The hurt needs to sink in somewhat before I can rise again. We all need to agknowledge any feelings had about failing this test. Get in touch with them, let them hurt you, but only temporarily. That pain can be a reminder. Let it get you up off your ass everyday when you feel like being depressed or alone. We must remember that the only way to succeed in life is to work hard. At the end of the day you will prevail.
Thank all of those who cared to wish you the best. Not everyone is so lucky to have that kind of support. Remember that this is a test and only a test. Use it as an opportunity to better yourself. You do not have a terminal disease like many of our patients often do.
Thank you all. I hope my thoughts helped.