I took my nclex exam last July 19 and you see after a week until now I just can't believe I failed the most awaited examination. Passing the state board is the most important thing to me right now. But I failed, again, for the second time.
I graduated from the year 2008. Then took nclex 2010, got failed. Then a lot happened since then. Got married and had a wonderful baby 15months. Finally, I decided to take again for the second time. I used Kaplan premiere it was okay but I think it didn't worked for me. I used Lacharity 3weeks before my exam and then didn't finished RN mastery app for practice test.
The night before the exam, I don't know if I was the only one who is nervous but my baby keep on crying that night and there's no way to keep her calm. So we've decided to put her on the other bedroom so that somehow I could able to sleep. But no, I keep on hearing her whining. She had tantrums and she cried all night. To my dismay I took 2 tabs melatonin and that was 3am then went back to sleep. But still, I can't seem to find my sleep. I'm still up until 6am. None of it worked, deep breathing, soothing chamomile scent oil etc. In short, I haven't slept at all.
The exam came and I was like a zombie. I had a lot of SATAs so I guess at first I was doing okay but then my brain cells got slowed down after 2 hours in 65 question. I took a break. Munched some chocolate bars even if I'm not hungry at all and feel like I want to puke. Then the next set of question is the hardest part for me. I had 3 computation. I had pictures, ecg strips, drag and drop then prioritizations. There's a lot of questions on my weakest point. I finished at 177 for 6 hours. I felt bad about it.
I felt like I was defeated. I let my anxiety and nervousness controlled me. I was so depressed and so frustrated with myself.
I hope this will also serve as a lesson for those who will take the exam. I also cram the day before the exam. So sleep and rest before the exam is a MUST!
And now, I need to get back up and compose myself. I won't let this turn me down to become what I really want to be. To become a Licensed RN! I dedicate this for my family, for the Lord almighty and of course for my career path.
But I really need your help guys! What is the best review material? Do I need to get saunders and Uworld? I feel like I really need to do practice question and little bit more of concepts. Thank you in advance. God bless you all!