I took my board exam a couple of days ago. I failed. Not only did I fail ... I failed miserably.I failed with 75 questions in under an hour and forty-five minutes. Perhaps worst of all was the fact that up until the moment I found out, I was completely oblivious to the fact that I had done so terribly. From a psychological standpoint it really is getting in the way of me moving forward. I really dont know how to at this point. I jumped through all the hoops of nursing school
with a decent GPA (3.39), I went to the Kaplan course for a week, completed over 3000 kaplan question bank question's not to mention the 6 practice exams that they offer with an average of 57%. I tried to use every resource available to me to ensure at least a fighting chance at passing this thing.
The night before the exam I got a good nights sleep, I woke up felt focused, prepared and completely confident in myself and my knowledge base (or as much as you can be given the consequences). I went into the testing center and sat for a test that looked familiar both in format and context to the practice exams I had done at home. I took my time to analyze questions, but not so much time that I felt I was over-analyzing (as I had had a problem with changing correct answers to incorrect answers) I had multiple select all that apply questions (more than 15) and plenty of priority questions. At no point did the exam become inauspiciously easier. Finally, the screen went blue at 75 questions and after filling out the questionaire I got up and left feeling great about my test.
I went home and did the Pearson VUE trick and ended up registering for an exam, without any show from the much anticipated "good pop-up" that everybody talks about. Still, defiantly (naively) I felt as though I had done well. During my practice exams I would always end up with scores in the 60's whenever I felt this confident.
Fastforward 48 hours and 8 bucks later, I got the unofficial results: FAIL !! FAILURE, LOSER, (fill in blank with any other increasingly degrading/ obscene expletives.)
I can deal with failing, thats not the part that bothers me at all, people fail and then they pass. What I cant seem to get over is the fact that I was so unaware of my misfortune. I mean to fail at 75 and not even be slightly cognicent makes me feel like i wasnt even AAOX3.
I guess my question to the community is, how do I move forward from this?
I dont feel like answering more questions will DRASTICALLY change my outcomes.