Re: How long in ICU before you felt comfortable?
I must say, this thread has done me a world of good. Thank you to all who have posted....
I've been in the ICU at the hospital I work at for 10 months.....starting the 11th!!! I've had doubts about my skill level for the last 2 days........ Long story short, I had a patient start crashing on me Saturday morning and....well, froze. I was looking at the monitor when his heart rate went up in the 180's, blood pressure cycled again and dropped from a systolic of 136 to 86.....and my brain went dead. It must have only been for a few seconds but those seconds felt so long. I just couldn't think.....panic set in. If not for some of the other nurses around I'm not sure how well things would have went. I called the Dr. .........patient went to surgery.
I just find myself wondering......am I a danger to my patients? Will I ever truly "get it". It's comforting to hear that everyone else either feels or has felt the same way. I'm still not sure what I will end up doing. Transfer to med surg.....or stay in the ICU that I love so much. I'm not sure I could live with myself if I let someone die. I've lost 1 patient so far.....some people can't be saved no matter how hard you try but it wasn't because I froze. The gentleman pulled through surgery OK, and his family thanked me over and over again for "being there"......I just don't feel like I was.....and it has really made me think. I'm not sure I can put anyone else at risk for the sake of my training.
Advice?
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