Re: In nursing school clinical did you experience discrimination / bias from instruct
Thanks for the responses. This was actually in a Peds clinical. My OB clinical was actually fantastic and was a very positive experience. Actually, if it had not gone so well I probably would not be continuing to try to stay in nursing school. My Peds instructor so demoralized me that I was actually having panic attacks at the beginning of my OB rotation. Luckily my OB instructor was awesome. She was very supportive especially to male students and made sure that we had positive experiences.
My Peds instructor was another story. She was very passive, aggressive. I don't want to go into a lot of details about it on a public forum. Initially what happened was that she was called in as a temp from another school at the last minute to replace the regular instructor who went out on emergency medical leave. She had not done our orientation. This was a new hospital for me. The instructor that did do our orientation left out critical information about the hospital's charting and procedures. On the first day of clinical I made what I think most instructors would have thought were minor mistakes in charting and I couldn't calculate a drug dosage for a chemo pt. because they failed to tell me that the current manifests were only at the hospital and couldn't be found in our drug guides. Of course, I was the only student in my group that picked a chemo pt and had never worked on this charting system. I think most instructors would have just corrected the student. Instead, this instructor threatened me with course failure. When I went to explain that I had not been trained in this area she became very angry, didn't believe me, and later drove to campus and read up on my student file.
I really believe she just expected me just just stand there and not defend or explain myself and just nod without explaining that I had not been trained in any of this. She also has this faux diminuative little girl voice (even though she is a large woman) and I have a very deep male voice. I think she might be intimidated by males. I tried as best I could not to come across intimidating to her and to come across compliant to her as an instructor. Unfortunately I think she was confrontational with me from the beginning. From there each day just got worse and she became more hostile towards me.
I would catch her repeating incorrect statements back to me all the time. She would accuse me of intenting to do things when I had never said or implied that I was going to do them. Nurses would correct me on a procedure or show me how to do something better but tell me it was nothing major but then on my evaluations it would be blown out of proportion x10 and turned into a clinical fail with details added that had not occurred or what she assumed had occured (she was rarely present but recounting these 3rd hand). Basically she created the reality she either wanted or expected to happen. It was just an ugly scene all the way around.
I am going to see the Chair of the department but unfortunately it's an uphill battle and a lot of this ends up being a "he said, she said" scenario. I just thought the statement the nursing prof made about bias in Peds and OB clinicals was interesting and wanted to know if anyone ever ran into it themselves or more specifically has seen any literature, studies or documentation on this. It would be interesting if push came to shove to have that to show the Chair.
BTW, it was interesting but at this hospital my fellow students and I commented that within the Peds nurses we felt that we found some of them to be the best and nicest nurses we had worked with and yet a large portion of them were the worst, nastiest, meanest nurses we had very seen. Ironic !!!
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