Please do not give up. From reading your post this it seems to me that you have worked your butt off to get to where you are... a scholarship...GREAT for you!! Do you work well in groups? If you do, find a small one even just another person with whom you can share your notes. If you can only work alone then divide the material into smaller manageable loads. Do not beat yourself up!! When taking notes, go over the material again and add to what you already know. Reach out to your professors because usually they are willing to also give you some guidance.
Again please do not let this get you down.

Judy

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