wow, thanks for making me feel normal. I am still not over it, but trying to figure out what the heck is next for me. I moved to this tiny town for this job and never thought about "what if it doesn't work out". So, kids and I may move closer to a family member that is closer to bigger cities and I can have support/help with my kids through the next adventure.

Hmm, my advice after this. When thinking of accepting a position 1)ask for a copy of their new grad orientation manuel 2)ask who will be my preceptor? will it always be the same person? Why/why not? 3)How long is my orientation? 4)What exactly do you expect of a new grad/their expectations? Do they give you a date to accomplish certain expectations by? (Which may be good. I felt like I had to "get" everything all the time. A systematic approach may have worked better). and 4)Get through your probation at all costs. I was soo close and nobody reminded me that this was the answer b/c once you are in, esp if you are in a union, they cannot fire you for small stuff. Also, do not **** anybody off. I think this was the think that got me fired. I had started nights, CNA's name was on the board for pt care help. CNA was not helping any nurses with pt care. One newer RN with exp was totally crazy w/ her pts and I tried to help. So, I asked the CNA to see about one of her call lights that was about to go to over overload. CNA stated "I am busy, I cannot". She was stocking gloves right near the room w the light. Hello! So, I asked her if she was supposed to help us with pt care, I am new, blah blah blah, she said to go talk to the night manager. which I did who stated yes she is supposed to help us, "she'll talk to her". And the next day I got the phone call to meet with RN manager and told "this isn't going to work out". So, definitely don't make anybody mad.

But in school I was taught, if I have an issue with something, talk to that person. So, I did. I think that is what did it. although with everybody else I was great with. And this CNA has had alot of talking to about helping, other RN's were complaining about her, )from what others told me before this, but nobody would do anything about it. So, when you get a job, just do your job - don't worry about anybody else!

And no, I have not been back yet to clean out my locker or meet with HR. I'll call them today. I really need to get it over with.
I'll let you know how it goes. Thanks!

and hang in there, it took me 6.5 years to get my Bachelor's in Nursing. Learn all you can and feel good about it. There's always more to learn. I know i'll find the place for me...

M