don't know if you still peruse these boards. your post struck a chord with me. wrote a nice message to you, relaying my understanding of your message. everytime i tried to send it i was instructed to shorten it. by the time i shortened it to the max 1000 characters, it lost it's meaning. would love to hear from you if you are still around. i know your pain. boy do i. thank god for medication. sending you a squeeze.