Mysteriousdarkness

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1. Crossfit

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to pugmom79's topic in Stress 101

   I and my boyfriend LOVE Crossfit. I don't do it as much as he does because I spend my time doing martial arts instead, but he practically lives at the box. Everyone who doesn't do Crossfit brings up rhabdo as an issue- Crossfit does not have a monopo...

2. I dreamed of being an R.N and now I sometimes dread going to work

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to chrty_knox's topic in Stress 101

   I have an anxiety disorder, I am not suggesting in any way that you do, I only mention it as I suffered the exact same problems. I constantly felt like I wasn't "enough", I wasn't up the standards I wanted to be. I'm an overachiever and perfectionist...

3. 1st Night Shift Loneliness

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to lucni01's topic in Stress 101

   This is a sad part of nursing- the social life and special times with special people you miss out on because you're at work when everyone else is at home. I missed out on birthdays, christmas's, parties. Even the simple things, like curling up in bed...

4. Burned out after only 2 years

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to smileyitnthesunny's topic in Stress 101

   Oh you sound like you're really in a bad place. It's really important that you find a way to take some time off- whether a temporary transfer to another ward, or going on to the casual bank to give you some variety, or even ask for a week or two off....

5. Do you think you have ever encountered an angel?

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to loriangel14's topic in Spirituality

   ive had weird things happen. this one time i was driving home at night, had my headlights on and was doing the speed limit. i started to slow to enter a roundabout. i looked right and left (in australia, the cars would come from our right). i didnt s...

6. A nurse who might have found god..

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to Mysteriousdarkness's topic in Spirituality

   I feel more and more like.. Humans ARE god. We have the power to inflict massive damage on each other, on our environment, on the world around us, we have the power to hate, kill, rape, steal, destroy.. but we also have the power to love, heal, care,...

7. A nurse who might have found god..

   Mysteriousdarkness posted a topic in Spirituality

   Let's be clear: this thread is not focused on finding religion or any branch of a particular faith. I don't want it to become about which religion is right- if any. I sont want to be told one or another religion is the true faith- I'm not religious. ...

8. New grad with HCA specialty contract--severe anxiety, need advice

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to Elisgirl's topic in Stress 101

   I too am ( or was) a nurse with anxiety and depression and completely Get your fear snd dread/ I used to cry every day before going to work and even AT work. I got really anxious, depressed. I tried changing wards, specialities, I got therapy, I swap...

9. treading water: burnout and compassion fatigue

   Mysteriousdarkness replied to coderunnerRN's topic in Stress 101

   That's what made me realise I had to quit or it would kill me. Someone actually asked me- a dear friend- she said: how would you feel if you could quit tomorrow and never have to go back into nursing again? i burst into tears- the dream of it sounded...

10. Anxiety

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to astonish31's topic in Stress 101

    Sorry for the late reply, over a month! I too have an anxiety disorder and suffer panic attacks. They truly are awful- I feel very sick, sweaty, dizzy, hyperventilate and simply cannot cope unless I run away pretty much- I avoided many things before ...

11. treading water: burnout and compassion fatigue

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to coderunnerRN's topic in Stress 101

    The one thing I really felt from your post was your struggle with the ethics and morality behind the palliative care/ advanced directives of the terminally ill.. This destroyed me also. The patients wanted to die so much- not in a suicidal kind of wa...

12. New Grad Unhappy

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to applesxoranges's topic in Stress 101

    Sounds like you're just stuck in a bad work environment. You're clearly very stressed and anxious about certain people and the way things are done in your particular area. Don't let this destroy your whole idea of nursing- just because this one ward/...

13. Need encouragement - sad and stressed

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to natsumi's topic in Stress 101

    I struggled with this too- seeing people, sick and dying is stressful and heartbreaking, there's no denying that. It's a traumatic thing to witness someone's last days/ moments, and even more traumatic to prepare the body, perform the last care etc. ...

14. The stress of nursing is ruining my general psyche.

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to AB1489's topic in Stress 101

    Float nursing is awful. There's such a nursing shortage in so many places, surely there are permanent jobs? Even at a differenthospital, aged care, community/ district/ home nursing- caring for disabled people in their own homes is far less stressful...

15. Burned out and depressed

    Mysteriousdarkness replied to MG1984's topic in Stress 101

    Oh my, I have just posted a topic talking about exactly the same feelings. I almost collapsed at work- I literally had a nervous breakdown i was that burnt out and depressed. I ended up very sick emotionally and physically and am still recovering. do...