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Joined Oct 5, '11 - from 'The Deep South'. BostonTerrierLoverRN is a Travel Nursing/ER/Trauma. He has '10' year(s) of experience and specializes in 'Adult/Ped Emergency and Trauma'. Posts: 1,272 (77% Liked) Likes: 3,903

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  • Aug 26

    I got this one!

    You are looking at a 5 year recovered nurse who was dumb enough during the peak of my addiction, to walk right in and pee a positive screen for opioids!

    Like Meriwhen said, usually a prescription (like I had) would have sufficed. But, because I didn't disclose that before testing- I bombed it, and received just enough confirmation that I was in a problem bigger than me, devastated because I realized I was not just an addict- but a full blown "functional" Junkie, and embarrassed beyond what you (if it wasn't your screen) will ever understand.

    They didn't call the board, though I now wish they had- I would have been immediately and "compassionately" referred to treatment, but, if there's a harder way to do something, I can usually find it.

    I tried 3 days of withdrawals before going to to the ER in desperation, where I was treated like a piece of dirt, (tried to give me Ativan, which I refused- didn't need a Benzo addiction!) The MD actually said I was wasting his time- this wasn't a rehab! "What do you want me to do, write you some Hydrocodone or Dilaudid until you can get a bed?" Really? I had plenty of dope. "No, I thought people could detox in hospitals without the horrible withdrawals." "If it's been three days, you ought to feel better soon, you want something for your nerves, . . .I mean, that's all I can do for ya!" "Ok, just discharge me, I should have stayed at home." "I agree!" I must say that he came to my 3rd Year Sobriety Reception and thoroughly apologized- I later found out he was struggling with Rx addiction at that time, he's now an addictionologist, and runs a Suboxone Detox Program.

    So, hopeless, and feeling like I had super-influenza- and sure I would probably end-it-all that night, I went in to my State Board of Nursing that next day sweaty, shaky, and exhausted. I was expecting to tell them I was an Opioid Addict, tell them what happened, and give them my license. I was expecting them to berate me, humiliate me further(if possible), and tell me my nursing career was over because of my poor choices and sickening lifestyle- I remember thinking (I was only 23-4 years into Nursing), They might have me arrested for the possibility I diverted (I never did thank God!) I was an ER coordinator without Pyxis Access in prior job. I was way wrong.

    I walked in to see a sweet young African American Girl at a reception desk who said "Baby, are you lost?" I told her no ma'am, I need to speak with a Board of Nursing Rep- "I have a personal emergency."

    She lit up with a glow-"Are you here with a chemical dependency problem baby?" I felt my heart slow down, I thought I was dreaming. "Your in the right place, You want a little help?" "Yes ma'am, but I came to report myself." "Let's get you to Ms. Xxxxxx.

    They preceded to save my life, my dreams, and my career. But, even if they'd tore up my license and danced around them while they burned, I would still only be here because of them! They found me a bed at a Detox Center, a Rehab bed following that for a 90 day stay, and they introduced me to the Recovery Nurse Program. I never thought before that I would consider employees of my State Board "My Angels!"

    Now fast forward 6 years later and I am an NP who consults regularly with the same nurses at the Board, along with 3 counselors, and 3 MDs/2 DOs to help others entering those doors petrified with fear, and feeling miserable, hopeless, and bracing for the same thing I was. I am still in shock of the way they treated me like their brother had walked in and said he was "in trouble."

    I think Nurses are Awesome, and from the one there when I was born, to the Board Nurses that saved my life, I am in great debt to some awesome substance abuse Nurses! That's pretty much what happened to me. The test saved my life and BSN- maybe/hopefully (if the persons is abusing them), you witnessed a huge "turn-around" in their life.

  • Aug 24

    Ok,

    As an ER Coordinator, I have seen a few things off in interviews, but DEAR GOD, who hurt you so?

    It almost sounds like a vent!

    I always just feel sorry for the single mom in jeans who would be wearing dress pants if she could have afforded them, if I had put up a "red flag" I would have turned down one heck of a ER Tech, who is now a ER RN, One of "OUR," not "My" best on staff.

    These judgemental posts about how I am sooooooo much better than you because I follow the book to a "T," and "conform to the upper-crust of this Profession" sound so shallow and "God-complex" like.

    Some of the greatest minds out there have hair just like Einstien, or decided to get a tattoo, and I cannot begin to imagine how you differentiate on your patient care according to how they are dressed-or look.

    I think you missed your calling for cosmotologist, or a prissy hair dresser!

    Otherwise, I hope you work in a private, small, uptown hospital where you won't be ashamed by Wrangler wearing blue collar workers, but doubt that since you had to post a vent about hair washing, denim, and piercings!

    Old School is Okay, but Compassion, Understanding, and Empathy are still character traits that I would rather see than starch constipated china doll nurses!

    Thanks!

    Kyle

  • Jul 20

    I did it 9 years ago, from ADN, and MSN- and my best advice is coffee, 3 alarm clocks, and the rest I plead the 5th- but it can be done.

    I would also have to give TONS of credit to my wife who also worked 40 hour weeks going to get her AS-MSW. I couldn't have done it without her, and she didn't even laugh at me when she caught me in the shower with my socks on before I realized it.

    Life Happens!

    Boston

  • Jun 18

    Ok,

    As an ER Coordinator, I have seen a few things off in interviews, but DEAR GOD, who hurt you so?

    It almost sounds like a vent!

    I always just feel sorry for the single mom in jeans who would be wearing dress pants if she could have afforded them, if I had put up a "red flag" I would have turned down one heck of a ER Tech, who is now a ER RN, One of "OUR," not "My" best on staff.

    These judgemental posts about how I am sooooooo much better than you because I follow the book to a "T," and "conform to the upper-crust of this Profession" sound so shallow and "God-complex" like.

    Some of the greatest minds out there have hair just like Einstien, or decided to get a tattoo, and I cannot begin to imagine how you differentiate on your patient care according to how they are dressed-or look.

    I think you missed your calling for cosmotologist, or a prissy hair dresser!

    Otherwise, I hope you work in a private, small, uptown hospital where you won't be ashamed by Wrangler wearing blue collar workers, but doubt that since you had to post a vent about hair washing, denim, and piercings!

    Old School is Okay, but Compassion, Understanding, and Empathy are still character traits that I would rather see than starch constipated china doll nurses!

    Thanks!

    Kyle

  • Jun 13

    "DON'T SWEAT THE PETTY STUFF!"
    ". . .AND DON'T PET THE SWEATY STUFF!"

  • May 3

    I agree, there is enough grief and pain in one lifetime to prevent the invitation of anymore- if you've been sober without any relapse issues for greater than 5 years and they don't know it, that's a blessing! Count it as one- and lay low

    You see, time passed means nothing really from their perspective. To them, an addict is a pickle. A pickle once was a cucumber- but no matter what you do, it's never going back to being a cucumber again. You and me are "pickles." We are just clean pickles that can be pickled again anytime. You are ahead of the game if they see you as a "cucumber" still- I wouldn't go looking for dill, vinegar, and a mason jar(sorry, terrible analogy).

    That is a ghost that can haunt your career and lifestyle more than you ever imagined if the BON does not already know your past. I live in that very real haunted present- even with near 5 years clean, and no diversion history or occupational related incidences.

  • Apr 19

    I hope this wasn't what the Mayans were seeing, Lol

    I know of 6 hospitals on total lockdown around here because of the high levels of this "crud." They allow no visitors, and mask/glove cart is at both entrances where I work.

    Doctors office had this sign, "If you are experiencing Nausea, Vomiting, and Diarrhea, please knock on our side door, and a staff member will buzz you in. Please do not enter waiting area."

    I was toooooo sick to make it to a doctor, but I applaud those who could hold it in long enough to make it.

    I found sitting on the toilet with a 3 gallon bucket in my lap the best treatment for like 1/2 an eternity

    I knew I was better when I finally got to my knees to take small sips from the lavatory sink.

  • Apr 19

    I have found a chicken wing bone in a fat fold of a 560lb women tonight, she said,"gah, I am surprised, the cat must have hid that there. Now don't get me wrong- I'm a dog person, but do cats hide stuff??? I hope everyone has eaten supper Also, I found a small cat toy- so she may have a "unique" cat? Wuh, I kept searching for the dead kitten because the skin-on-skin inflammation was something akin to death, Vintage Cheddar, Crusty Butt, and Body Odor center, with a hint of Cabbage. I cleaned well with 4 PCTs holding up the belly, and then I left the patient to be breaded by the "Powder Puff" girls

  • Apr 19

    *Vegimite is that canned stuff that aussies love to eat on bread as a spread. I think it is Yeast based, but not sure.

    playing devil's advocate, since the cute little lulliby bells play hospital wide for a birth,. . .

    I suggest we have a heavy organ play overhead when someone makes the ultimate check-out.

  • Apr 19

    Once heavily burdened with no where else to turn and 2 patients waiting to use the bathroom, I opened the door, . .swallowed, and asked. .

    "Mrs. XXXXX Can I borrow your bedside commode, I promise I will clean it really good when I get finished with it."

    "Yeah Hun, But your welcomed to use my bathroom, you'd have alot more privacy in there."

  • Apr 18

    Wal*Mart Check-Out Associate: How are you doing today?
    Me after bad ER shift: Turn On Your Light.

    Hey, Its Cheaper than Therapy!!!

  • Apr 18

    Once heavily burdened with no where else to turn and 2 patients waiting to use the bathroom, I opened the door, . .swallowed, and asked. .

    "Mrs. XXXXX Can I borrow your bedside commode, I promise I will clean it really good when I get finished with it."

    "Yeah Hun, But your welcomed to use my bathroom, you'd have alot more privacy in there."

  • Apr 18
  • Apr 18

    *Vegimite is that canned stuff that aussies love to eat on bread as a spread. I think it is Yeast based, but not sure.

    playing devil's advocate, since the cute little lulliby bells play hospital wide for a birth,. . .

    I suggest we have a heavy organ play overhead when someone makes the ultimate check-out.

  • Apr 18

    Who locked the patient advocate in the linen room this time?!!! . . .Sigh . . .


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