I think it's human nature to have at least maybe some inkling of doubt about what they do as their career. I mean, it is something you plan on doing for the rest of your working career. Some people may not question their decisions but I think maybe in your case it would be beneficial to ask yourself why you went into nursing in the first place (think of Self-Concept and Self-Esteem topics).
Not saying this is you but a lot of people flock to nursing because they know they can make the big bucks, if you can get a job, but that's a whole 'nother animal. They don't think about the other things being a nurse entails. I think people forget why nurses get paid well, while it's a hard, hard job, it is a rewarding one. While I've only been in nursing school
myself for a mere week, I've seen this firsthand with my mom who has been a telemetry nurse for almost 25 years. I don't think I'm that far off when I say I believe if someone gets into nursing solely for the money, they'll never make it.
I'm sure you've probably already realized this but nursing school is hard because end result, you are going to be responsible for someone else's life. I feel like they want to break you down to build you up, I look at that as a good thing. I am ready like a sponge, ready to soak up any information and knowledge I can!
When I read about your friend just sitting in a chair for most of his shift, for me, I couldn't do that job, no matter how much I was getting paid. I had a desk job for four years and it was hell. For me, becoming an RN and working as an RN is my dream. I know in the future there will be those hard days, really hard days because life is not easy or perfect but I see how much joy my mom gets from her job and the love she receives from her patients and colleagues. I want that. I can't even think of a job that is similar to the experience of being a nurse.
Anyway, enough blabbing from me, I leave you with this (something my professor shared with us I really liked):
Being A Nurse
You will never be bored
You will always be frustrated
You will be surrounded by challenges.
So much to do and so little time.
You will carry immense responsibility
and very little authority
You will step into peoples lives
and you will make a difference.
Some will bless you
Some will curse you
You will see people at their worst
and at their best
You will never cease to be amazed
at peoples capacity for
love, courage, and endurance.
You will see life begin....and end.
You will experience resounding truimph
and devasting failures.
You will cry a lot
You will laugh a lot
You will know what it is to be human
and to be humane......