Quote from utadahikaru
nursing school is really getting me down. i know its only temporary, but I feel like i'm gasping for air. I'm struggling to prepare for exams, stressed, frustrated, etc. Today I talked to a friend who makes 70k a year working in a refinery who said 90% of his job involves sitting around reading magazines and getting up once an hour to check pressure gauges.
So, i'm thinking "my god why am I killing myself !"
Has anyone else experienced this feeling of W-T-F am I even doing in this career field?
(not sure if I'm the only one that has had moments of serious doubt)
I often ask myself why I'm doing this because I genuinely don't know. I had no big desire to change careers and still may not. There aren't a lot of areas of nursing that I find interesting or appealing. Frankly, bring on the flack here, but I'd rather be a PA-C. However, the opportunity to do so isn't and won't ever be in my life. If it does transpire locally and the price is right I'll do it. Beyond that though - negative!
I grew up in a community of refinery and chemical plant workers that got paid a lot to occasionally go look at gauges and pipe. They had grills at work and would frequently send someone out for steaks or some other kind of meat along with vats of chili, gumbo, or whatever they had going on that day. Some of them had TV in their huts. The prospect of not having to do anything most of your time is pretty nice...for a while. I've had a job like that before, but I didn't get paid as much as 70k for it which made leaving it easier. I got bored and started finding problems with the organization as well as solutions regarding how to fix it. That generally doesn't go over well with managers, lol, and I quit before I could stick a foot in my mouth.
The caveat for me is that thus far BSN school hasn't been hard. I guess I groomed my previous life (degree, experience, etc.) in such a way that it hasn't been near the challenge for me that many report, and for that I am grateful. Part of that may also be that I'm not as worried about as many people are. I don't have a clue what I'll end up doing once I finish school. I didn't want to pay out of pocket (income or savings) for school so I took out a $12,500 student loan which I'll have to pay that back, but I won't have any other debt going so it won't be bad.