Re: Pre-Nursing Students with ADD
I have ADD. I found out when I was 34. I'm 40 now.
I viewed meds as a crutch for a long time, but now have come to accept that I need them. Do I take them regularly? No. Do I see a difference when I'm not taking them? Absolutely.
Fact is, the only way I can do as well as I am in school is with the assistance medication provides. Is it everything? No. It serves to quiet the noise in my head that distracts me, aids in my focus, and prevents me from acting on the impulses that I spent 34 years getting in trouble for. Does it curb them all? No. Do I still have trouble? Yes. After all, 34 years of the same ADD-driven behavior creates patterns and habits that can be tough to undo. Change can happen, though it's slower than I'd like. Spend 34 years being a social, academic, and career misfit, and the damage is done. I try, I really try. 6 years later I'd say I've made good strides.
I started with Ritalin. I didn't like it. I'm taking Straterra now. It's not the answer to everything, but it helps. I did a lot of work on being aware of my own behavior, and it was very tough to do. But at least now I can relax and stop being my own worst policeman, and have gotten better at identifying the behaviors that cause me trouble and I can curb them most often right after they start, and sometimes before.
My academic and employment career was laced with frustration, ridicule, boredom, stress, and failure. I never fit in anywhere. My self esteem suffers til this day. It's getting better, largely in part to my success in returning to school, earning a 4.0 GPA, getting accepted into a tough nursing program to get into and stay in, and now I'm two weeks into the last semester of the program and I graduate in May.
I have found numerous ways to study, including retyping my notes over and over, labeling diagrams over and over, flash cards, and lately, I have been reading my notes over and over while walking around my neighborhood. I now have a treadmill for those inclement weather days. I find that if I give my brain something else to be responsible for (forward motion as in walking) then it is easier for me to focus on what I'm reading.
My suggestions to any serious student with the notion that they've got ADD are:
a. If you haven't already, get a real, official, definitive diagnosis. You can't treat what you just "think" you have.
b. Accept that your brain functions differently than that of the average individual. I do not use 'normal' because to me, there is no such thing.
c. Talk with a professional about options available to assist you. Meds are one of them.
d. Accept that needing medications is part of having a disorder. They are often abused by people who have a friend that hands them out, but actually needing them should cause no feelings about looking like a drug seeking addict. Medications provide your brain with the chemicals needed to help it along, just as insulin helps a diabetic manage glucose levels.
I for one wish I did not need meds, but the fact is I do. I wish I did not need BP meds, or Cardiac meds, or meds to control sugar and cholesterol and triglycerides. But sadly, I do, because like ADD, these other issues have been genetically passed from my parents to me. I have not begun the medication regimen for those things yet, because I really want to try diet and exercise, but like my attempts at unmedicated behavior modification to control my ADD, I may resign to just taking the meds and keeping my body under control as well as my mind.
If I think of more, I'll add it later.
ND
(edited to add specifics and reword a few things.)
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