One week down, umpteen to go.

  1. I got through week one.
    One of my professors is familiar with me from last time I took N204. She's the only one out of the three that sat there and said they probably did not do enough for me. I remember and appreciate her for that. As soon as she walked in on the first day, she extended her hand, said welcome back, and told me we're going to have a successful semester.
    The other professor is new to me. She's nice. Low pressure, but you can tell she wants you to think. I think, therefore I do not worry.
    There's a third professor who's doing clinical rotations only, and I hope to find out the skinny on her tomorrow. I have not heard her name before even though she's been on staff for a while, so maybe that's a good thing. You always hear about the bad ones.

    I'm in my OB rotation now. I suppose the professor who knows me from before thought it best to get it out of the way now rather than give me a chance for a big build up like last time. Not a bad idea. But I'm pleased to say that I have a whole different outlook and approach to clinicals so I don't forsee having any problems with opening my mouth too much to patients.

    I don't talk much to anyone, in fact, if I can help it. For the first time anywhere, I'll probably be decribed as a quiet guy. Fine. I just want to fly under the radar and get this overwith. I see the school psychologist weekly, so if I need someone to talk to, I can vent there.

    I'll do fine, I know I will. Not worried. Not like last time. I sit in class during lecture with my notes from last year, and I add things I did not already have, so when it comes test time, I've certainly got it covered.

    It still hurts from time to time when I think about what went down and how it really does suck that I've got to take this whole thing over again, but I think about how, in spite of the great deal of pain and emotional and financial burden it all caused, I'm still able to find positives in it.

    My outlook is different now, my attitude is different, my soul searching and self realizations have paid off in spades, I'm healthier now because of it. I'm losing weight, watching what I eat, and taking a new med that keeps my head nice and quiet. Had I not gone through what I did, it might have never come to light that not only do I have A.D.D. but also O.C.D. The one med I'm taking is controlling both, and I am certainly happy about that.

    So fellas, and the ladies who like to drop in us fellas over here, I am well and looking foward to finishing what I've started.

    Thanks for listening.
    ND2007
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  2. 8 Comments

  3. by   Tweety
    Excellent attitude. It sounds like you're accepting that you can't rewrite the past and are present focused and forward looking.

    I know for sure in my past some of my "failures" catipulted me to my biggest successes and made me a better and stronger person.
  4. by   sirI
    You sound great, NurseDaddy!!!!!!

    It's going to be a great year for you!!!!!
  5. by   donsterRN
    I'm very happy you posted!

    I have to say that I admire your attitude tremendously. That's going to get you far.

    I wish you much luck and success in your program; you're going to do very well.
  6. by   SteveNNP
    Sounds like you're off to a good start... keep us posted!


    Stephen
  7. by   muffie
    good attitude, good for you
    that's 1/2 the battle
    i wish you well in the future
  8. by   Chaya
    It doesn't matter how many times you fall down- only how many times you get back up. I just know it's all going to work out for you this time, NurseDaddy!
  9. by   Medwynn
    Good Luck NurseDaddy.
  10. by   CametoitlateTexan
    There's a song I know that goes;

    I believe in the rest of the story,
    I believe there's still ink in the pen.
    I have wasted my very last day
    trying to change what happened
    way back then!

    Keep movin on NurseDaddy.
    I'm proud of you, man.

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