I'm in my 2nd semester of LPN school at a community college, in a very highly regarded program with a 100% NCLEX pass rate. I was THRILLED to have gotten in to nursing school
. I have a bachelor's in psychology and have a passion for helping people. Last semester we did our clinicals in the nursing home, which I didn't mind as much as the other students, and all we did was give baths and change beds. I absolutely loved interacting with my patient.
This semester we are doing OB and Med-Surge clinicals. Right now I'm in Med-Surge and I HATE it! I absolutely cannot stand it. I dread it every day, and cry the whole way home, worrying about whether I provided good enough care to my patients, and second-guessing everything I did, wondering if I made a mistake. I was shaky giving my first shot and barely did it, my instructor had to put his hand over mine. This morning when my clinical instructor introduced me to the nurse whose patient I was getting report on, she rudely said that nobody had told her she was having a student and she didn't want one. In fact, quite a few of the nurses at this hospital have been rude.
Maybe I'm tired, maybe I'm frustrated, but I just don't think I'm cut out for the hospital. I really wanted to be a psych nurse, but for now I am stuck in med-surge, and I know there will be many more med-surge days to come. I am thinking about quitting and trying something like physical therapy assistant.