I am only halfway through my first semester, and I left clinical in tears, called my advisor, and now have an appointment with the department head/one of my instructors on Monday, because I am 27 years old and being BULLIED
Not only that, but they call our patients "weird" and "gross," and FELL ASLEEP in a meeting with hospital IT personnel who made a special hour-long trip to come train us, at a ROUND table!!!
They bait me into conversations, and then bring other things into it only to mock me and make fun of me.
I expect professionalism, not elementary school. My advisor offered to put me and another girl in a different clinical group next semester, which is great. BUT, that doesn't solve my coping skills. I still feel like it's my problem, that if I were to handle things better it wouldn't be such a big deal.
I feel guilty for being made fun of. But it is incessant. I realize there's always going to be some of this in every environment, but I am SERIOUSLY thinking of giving up my dreams of PMHNP and returning to Clinical Psychology because I just CANNOT take it anymore.
I'm supposed to go to the meeting with the department head on Monday with ideas for solutions, but all I can think of is to work on my coping skills (how do you assertively address passive-aggressive bullying???)
Does anyone have any suggestions?
Wow. This is really sad. If I were you I would not even talk to them. I know this is a bit immature but when I have felt like this I just look at them with the ---- look I can muster and say, "Wow....you are stupid!". It puts them in their place every time. Good luck to you.
Last edit by DidiRN on Nov 3, '13
Nov 3, '13
by nekozuki, LPN
Sometimes, I feel like we're a little too quick to throw out the "bully" buzzword. By labeling someone else a "bully," we don't improve ourselves or take accountability for our own actions. Personalities will clash, cliques will form, feelings can be hurt through subtle nuances, and you will have to learn to not only function, but excell in that environment.
Honestly? I think you need to stop, take a step back and re-evaluate. Don't victimize yourself. Own your emotions. No one can force you to respond to perceived meanness; that is all you.
I think it's awful that the kindest, most beautifully sensitive people in the world are also the easiest to snap at, dump on and be on the receiving end of whatever emotional garbage people are working through. But with that being said, you have to learn to toughen up, protect yourself and take responsibility for the ways you react. You allowed the passive-aggressiveness of others to make you leave the clinical site, something that would've had you kicked out of the nursing program I went through. And once you hit the ground running as an LPN, tears are nothing but blood in the water to the sharks of the nursing world.
Jerkholes and jackwagons exist in every profession. If this is a problem for you here, it will be a problem for you everywhere. If you give up your dreams because of it, be prepared to give up dreams in the future as well.
Honestly, my advice to you? Same as people who work with vicious or untrained dogs. Envision someone strong that you want to emulate. When you're around animals, project it. No one develops confidence and the ability to let things roll off their back overnight. But, you can fake it 'til you make it.
Hang in there. You are the only person with the power to make yourself feel. Use it.
Last edit by nekozuki on Nov 3, '13
: Reason: Fixing hilarious spelling errors