Although my shift ended at 10:30pm tonight, I did not clock out until 11:20pm; however, staying over doesn't bother me. I'm having a hard time falling asleep tonight and wanted to get some thoughts off my mind. I'm a brand new LPN. I graduated this past May and work at a long term care/rehab facility. I have had 7 days of training so far and am not yet finished with my orientation. I'm feeling so discouraged tonight. I had the med cart to myself tonight and began my 8pm med pass at 7pm. I didn't get finished until 10pm. I put the CNAs behind because they were trying to wait for some residents to get their meds before they helped them to bed, but they ultimately couldn't wait any longer. We have pictures to identify the residents, but I am still learning who is who and the pictures can be somewhat misleading. This facility does have several halls to it and this was only the second time I've been on this particular hall.
I keep running the shift through my head. I had one CNA ask me if resident A, B, or C had their meds yet and I had to meekly say "no". I managed to stay calm throughout the shift, but I can't help but feel discouraged. I was a CNA before I became an LPN (I worked at a different facility though), but I wonder if I have it in me to supervise the CNAs and be a more authorative figure. I can be very soft spoken at times. I realize I have only been a nurse for 7 shifts and some days will be better than others. I guess I just needed to get some things off my chest tonight so that hopefully I can get some sleep.
Thank you for listening to me ramble. Nursing has always been my passion and I really want to do my best and be an advocate for the residents. It will be nice when some of this "newness" wears off