Nclex Today

Up until this test I felt so confident of my ability to pass boards. Now, I feel DUMB. I don't feel like I knew a darn answer!!! They were nearly ALL either med questions or which patient would you see first questions and select all that apply. I know most people leave thinking they failed, but seriously, I am pretty sure I did!!! You wouldn't guess by how I feel now that I was third in my class and had the highest LPN assess test score. I felt like that was a great indicator of how I might possibly do. And, of course, my LIppencot's did diddly squat in prepping me. I was getting awesome scores on my practice test questions, and felt like I hadn't just spent a year in school when I sat down and took my real one today.
I did my best to reason through and do "critical thinking"-ah!
What are the odds of failing when it does turn off at 85? Do most pass on that number or is it pretty even? I was kind of told if you failed at that number then you did pretty lousy. I don't know that mine was THAT bad, but bad enough. It isn't even about failing, more so about the embarrassment of it. My two good friends in my class were 1 and 2 in the class-they both were shut off at 85 and passed. One girl who was pushing last in the class and struggled all year (even retook the LPN assess test) has passed as well, though I have no idea when hers turned off. I know I shouldn't sit here and be so hard on myself but I can't help it. I work in a hospital already with people who have been pulling for me since I got into nursing in 1998. All saying I was meant for this, a natural nurse, so intelligent. now I feel dumb. Maybe I don't need "answers" as much as I need to vent. My mom is an RN where I work too-I just couldn't show up not passing. I can't imagine getting stripped of my worked so hard for GPN title.
Well, thank you for listening. I have to wait until atleast Tuesday afternoon for the internet results. I worked today and will work thru Thursday. THis will be a tough week for me.