Hey everyone, so I'm new at this and I would really appreciate some feedback that could possibly save my career as a nurse...
My first job as a LVN is working at a skilled nursing home and the moment I had gotten hired on the spot, was the BEST feeling in the world!!! But the moment I started working, in which they only trained me for six short days, I was also being taught wrongfully by some nurses... Everything was being fabricated, and things just got real! Finding out this place did not pass the state 4-5 times earlier this year and almost shut down said a lot by how some of these nurses trained me... Like assuming a patients BP was within the range to give BP meds, and documenting that meds were consumed by patients when it was really refused... I was in shock, but as a new grad and a new nurse, I stuck to what I believed was ethically right for my patients. A part of me is afraid to work in a place like this, and the first time I had to stay over additional 6 hours after my shift ended to finish orders, and documentation I had my first mental breakdown. Got me thinking and questioning myself if I had gotten myself into the wrong profession, I cried for days. I've been working there for just about a month now and I know that eventually things will get better, for now I just have to stay paddling. It's also been hard to get my routine down since I'm a floater, it's always a challenge being switched between 3 different stations with 30+ patients.
I'm slowly starting to get numb and comfortable to all the craziness and hectic days, but I'm still questioning myself if, maybe skilled nursing home isn't for me? or could it mean that nursing overall isn't for me?! I'm the first nurse in my family so I don't really have a lot of people to relate with, there's a few people at my work who tells me that it's always going to be tough in the beginning and that's kind of expected, but I want to think that maybe it's this place that I'm working for that is ALL WRONG and not ME?!
I feel like an emotional wreck. I want to be a great nurse! But it's hard to maintain that mentality working for a place that feels so disorganized and almost wrong. I have no comparison since this is my first nursing job. I don't know if it's like this everywhere else?
