... did I mention that recently I wasn't so sure?
Thats one of the main reasons I have not been around here recently, I felt a bit of a fraud.
I started to doubt my ability to be a nurse after a failed job interview
(my first interview) where I felt like I knew nothing, and I was begining to panic that I would never get a job or kill someone.
I even started at looking at non nursing jobs
who would accept a BSc as a qualification! I needed a quick swift kick or a reality check!
I got that today at work.... Normaly when I work bank shifts as an AN I don't tell the staff I am doing my training unless they know me or I want to do my work on my break, but the CSW on this ward knew me and told all the staff when I was due to finish, so I was fighting against the other ANs who had problems with becomming RNs.. and it started to sink in that I did know somethings. (and to be honest it was a bit of an ego boost when I could answer some questions!)
I still don't think I know enough, but the little things I do know made a difference to me today. I can't even type what I am trying to say, I haven't rushed out and saved anyones life, but I felt I had made a difference in the patients I was helping to look after.
So nursing is still what I want to do, I guess if I manage to get a job then I should buy a diary rather than using this site as a reflective journal.
I wonder if there will be any freebies at congress on Tuesday?